Keep grinding. It's the part of life as one can only progress if he starts loving the grind. A quote by Tony Robbins. The best motivational speaker I have ever seen in my life. So, if you keep ding what you have to do for survival, it's getting you to your goal coz the most important part of success is to take the shit life throws at you. Hope you soon find your passion and thank you for sharing your experiences with us.