The daughter of MS

Dear Universe,
Sometimes after I have made my bed and I lie back down to have a rest with a blanket, It feels so good to just rest, I wonder, will I be just like him? Will I spend my golden years just laying here? Watching show after show, so consumed by the pain..... the depression.... the shitty dealt hand I’ve been given.... Or will I rise up and help others see a brighter future? Will the work that I’ve put in to try to help him have better days be a gift? Or will it have a more negative impact on our already damaged daughter/ father relationship? That’s all I really want for him, is just better days ✌️💚🍃