A Moment of Self-Reflection On The Eve of the New Year

A New Year is soon here, and the old one will soon be done – and it is time to self-reflect. What have I done? Have I realized or tried to manifest any or some of the ideas that I have had throughout the year? Have I lived my life in a way that is best?

To assist and support myself in this process I have a document on my desktop where I write down my goals, my plans, and my general direction in life at the moment. By comparing the words in my document with reality, I am then able to ascertain whether I have actually moved in the direction that I have decided. Many times this is not the case, and then I have to ask myself, why is that? How come it is that I am not moving into the direction that I want? There are some recurring reasons, one of them is that I have not prioritized my goal, another can be that my goal is not aligned with my current reality, and that it is not realistic at the moment. Another usual reason is that I have simply not remembered my goal, and hence, I have not actively engaged in pursuing it.

I have found this mentioned type of self-reflection to be very empowering – and New Years eve is a good occasion for such a introspective moment. Writing it all down automatically creates structure and organization – and it definitely means something else to write a idea/plan down – rather than to only think about it. When it is put into writing, already there, I have in a way made it a reality – it is there – physically in-front of me. And in writing it down, I can sift the ridiculous ideas from the realistic and plausible ideas.

And because we live in an era of constant audiovisual stimulation, it is easy to loose direction and focus. I have myself several times been tossed around in several areas of interests/experiences/movements – sometimes went in one direction, sometimes moved in the other. And then we have the presence of other people, what they speak about, their opinions and ideas about things. Its hard not to get influenced – and that can cause a derailing to happen. Regularly giving myself a moment to reflect on where I am and where I want to go prevents this from happening. Its a way for me to keep in contact with MYSELF, my CORE, my BEINGNESS – and through that – I can stay true to myself in the decisions that I make.

For me personally – in the next year – I want to pursue blogging to a greater extent – furthermore I want to push myself in my career, however, do it in alternative ways, through realizing ideas, plans and projects that I enjoy and find personally challenging and developing. I also want to have a more clear direction and structure in my daily life – which I have thus far found challenging to create. In terms of the year that has passed, I am satisfied with how I have been able to maintain my personal life and remain stable with a child in my life. What I am less satisfied with is that I have not structured and planned my life the way I see I am able to do. Hence – that is my challenge for the coming year.

With that being said, Enjoy some Self-Reflection, have a Happy New Year All, and Steem on!