I've Been Sober, But I don't Care

I was a black sheep

Outside of society

I slept in the dust

I fought and collided

I went walking like when I said goodbye

I've been sober, but I didn't care

I'm so antisocially, social

Getting older as my life's getting shorter

Original before I conformed and back to original

Desire, it has been found

It's inside me

What have I become

I've lost you

Never to be found

I look back, and wonder where it all went

I used to be happy, such a loving man

That was before the destruction of my world

I'd like to think I loved you

If that's possible for me

I never have been able to figure that part out

But I used to be happy

I really used to be

Now you're just distant in my mind

Strange to me, a phantom of who you used to be

My memory disappears a little each day

Part of my disease, a mental tragedy

The only thing I've truly loved is my sons

Unable to see them these days

Crushed, broken and scared

I'll forget them soon too

As my days are numbered with all my diseases and conditions

All I can do is keep them in my mind, wishing

Maybe this is rock bottom, time to go fishing

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