I TRY REALLY HARD ( Original Composition ) - Poetry / Song

I sit at my desk with nothing in my head
I feel like lost and that I should be dead
I try really hard not to look at your space
and not ready to hear that gone are the days

I work all day long else just sit outside
I still look for you, sorry I couldn't hide
I try really hard not to look at your chair
but I end up at from where you used to stare

I lay on my my bed and nights seem to never end
and I crave all time to feel the touch of your hand
I try really hard not to believe you are not here
you were the only one, now for whom should I care

I go out on lunch and heed for those you cared
coz it is what you asked for in the note you shared
I try really hard not to think you are not my soul
everytime I breathe, down my eyes the tears roll