There’s more to this life than money

in #poetry7 years ago

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Do you ever have one of those days where you just feel empty - like you're wandering through your days on auto pilot, going through the same routine, doing the same damn things?⠀

I felt like that this past weekend after getting drunk and waking up with a massive hangover. I was so disappointed in myself (not to mention embarrassed for being silly the night before). And it wasn't like I had done anything bad, per se, but I was just so sick of the same old thing - getting drunk, feeling like crap, waking up with no energy or drive to get through the day, regretting the night before.⠀

Sometimes I get caught up in the monotony of going out, of drinking, of doing what everyone else is doing – and don’t get me wrong, having fun with friends/ having a routine isn’t wrong – it’s only wrong when you lose sight of yourself and what you really want. It’s just wrong when you find yourself moving through your days without purpose, without excitement, without a real sense of direction. And that’s how I was feeling Monday.⠀

Honestly, there’s so much more to this life than meaningless conversations, than getting drunk on the weekends, watching your days slip by in an endless stream of sleep and wake. More than the same routines, same beer, same people. More than staring at the television with the window shades drawn, trying to make the night go faster so you can fall asleep and no longer feel.⠀

There is more to this life than watching cars rush past your window, than sitting in traffic without purpose, than pushing your chair closer to a desk where you spend the next eight hours wishing you were anywhere else.⠀

There is more to this life than finding a body to touch, than lying next to someone who barely knows your name, than settling for something that tastes like love but you know in your heart isn’t even close.⠀

There’s more to this life than money, dizzying yourself in circles trying to obtain it, only to find it’s paper and doesn’t bring you happiness any more than the bottom of a bottle does.⠀

There is more to this life than believing you’re stuck. Because you’re not. There is so so much out there; go get it.