My Heartbeat change with Steem Pongs ball

Today I really wanted to play something light. My mind was a bit tired and I only wanted a small break from everything. So I opened Steem Pongs again. I did not plan anything, I did not think about scoring. I wanted to play and relax my head. When the game opened that small ball was bouncing already like it was calling me. My heart started run with this ball. When ball speed increase, my heartbeat also increase. I took a long breath and started touching my paddle left and right.

In start game always feel soft. The ball moves slow, like it is giving me time to warm up. I was not in hurry, just following ball with easy focus. Every time I hit it, that tiny sound feels good. Because it feels like I am doing something right after a whole day of confusion. My score slowly went up 10, 25 and then 40. I did not care too much, I was just enjoying those small moments.

But after some minutes speed started changing. The ball became faster and my eyes also started becoming sharp. I stopped thinking about anything else. It was just me, the paddle and fast white ball. Sometimes I hit it perfect and sometimes ball touched ground side and bounced like it was teasing me. I said in my heart, Please don’t play tricks with me right now.

Around 100 score, I felt small confidence inside me. I thought today I can play better than before. I know 479 is not a big score for many people, but for me it feel big because it takes real focus. Steem Pongs is simple but still it test me. My finger was moving fast, sometimes slipping. But I kept trying.

At 200 score the ball was already crazy fast. I had to move the paddle so quickly that my whole hand was almost shaking. I don’t know why a simple game makes me nervous like this. It felt funny and serious at same time. One moment I almost lost but the ball hit the corner and came back slow. I said Thanks Allah and kept playing without blinking.

When I reached 200 score, I actually smiled. It felt like I did something good today. The game was no more relaxing now. It had become like a fight between me and ball. My heartbeat was fast because speed was too much. It felt like ball wants me to fail. But I was stubborn that I was not lose like this. Not today.

After 250, my hand movements were too quick. Sometimes I even missed the paddle a little but still managed to hit at the last second. Those moments feel like mini heart attacks. I cannot explain but it feels like I am saving my own life in game. My eyes were tired but I didn’t stop.

Then suddenly the score became 479. I looked for one second and I felt a real happiness. Not a big happiness but a soft one inside the chest. Like when I achieve something small but it still matters to me. I said in my heart, Good job yaar. Because honestly, I was not expect I will reach 479 today.

But right after that ball came super fast from a weird angle. I moved quickly but my finger slipped just a little. Only one small mistake and ball passed me and Game Over popped on screen. For 2 seconds I was silent. I looked to screen again score 300. I felt a mix of emotions. Happy because I reached my target. Sad because I wanted to go a little more. But most of all, I felt peaceful because I played with full heart.

Steem Pongs is a simple game but it gives a different type of feeling. It makes me forget my worries for some minutes. It make me focus, move fast and sometimes shout Oh no! when the ball changes direction. But best part is, it gives small achievements that make my day feel lighter.

I closed the game and smiled softly. I know next time I will try again. I can do better I can reach 500. But one thing is must, this small game give me small happiness and sometimes that is enough for whole day.