The Diary Game: [30/03/2026]A Good Morning Ruined by One Headline

I woke up this morning feeling very light, like the day had something good waiting for me. There was no reluctance to get out of bed, just a calm kind of joy. I stretched slowly and allowed myself to enjoy that moment before starting my day.I told myself today would be productive, peaceful, and maybe even a little exciting.

With that mindset, I picked up my phone and got ready for my online learning. I didn’t know that in just a few minutes, everything about that mood would change. As I joined my online session, the first thing that caught my attention was a post, a disturbing one, talking about a killing that happened in one of the states in my country. At first, I thought it was just another headline, but as I read further, i saw lives lost, families broken, stories cut short without warning or mercy.

My heart dropped instantly, From feeling like a hundred, I fell straight to zero in a matter of seconds. Its hard to explain that kind of shift, but it felt like the world paused in sadness. I just sat there, staring at my screen, unable to focus on anything else. All I could think about were the people involved, their last moments, their families. It made me feel so small, like nothing I was doing really mattered at that moment. I was supposed to attend a meeting later, but I couldn’t bring myself to even prepare.

My mind was too heavy, and my emotions were all over the place. Even my body reacted, my appetite completely disappeared without warning. Food didn’t feel important anymore, I decided to skip eating in the morning and just wait it out . I tried reading novel to see if my mood could be better but I couldn't concentrate.

I told myself maybe by lunchtime, I would feel a little more stable. So I stayed quiet, moving slowly through the day. Time passed, and though the heaviness didn’t fully leave, it softened a little. By the time it was afternoon, I finally convinced myself to eat something. I made some Indomie, something simple, something easy to manage. After eating, I felt just a little better, like I had regained a small part of myself.

I had a pile of clothes waiting for me, laundry I had postponed for days. Today was supposed to be the day I finally handled everything and got it done. But honestly, I just didn’t have the strength or motivation anymore. The events of the morning really did something to me, So instead of pushing myself, I folded the clothes back and packed them away again.

Later in the evening, I made something I had actually been craving for a while. Yam and egg sauce, warm and comforting in a way I really needed and that's how I spent my day. Even though I didn’t do much today, my mind has been planning quietly. Something consistent, something meaningful that I want to start doing on this app. It’s something I truly want to commit to, from now till as far as I can go. I’ll be sharing it tomorrow, and honestly, I would really appreciate your support.