by the way, like your name... george michael has a nice song called It Doesn't Really Matter on his Older album, and Paul Anka, many years ago, wrote a cool song called It Doesn't Matter Anymore. They both have lovely sentiments, about not caring anymore, but also in a way, about rising above it all, like... who cares anyway? you know, like a cool stance, realistic, yet one I find quite hopeful. Perhaps that's what you were feeling. Disillusion but hope. Perhaps...