I can relate with your feelings, especially the toxicity that existed between you and your husband. I had a girlfriend whom I just could not let go. When I am away from her, I became miserable but when I am with her, we quarrelled every moment. The only time we were not quarrelling was when we were having make up sex and sometimes we ended up fighting while having sex.
I tried to bend over for her, to please her but as much as we tried, we just could not go a day with aggravating each other.
I have had this scenario repeat itself several times but her case was the worst. I am not saying I am perfect though. I am not.
I have stopped dating because I don't know who is toxic; myself or the ladies I meet. Maybe I do not know how to go about a relationship.
I am definitely tired of toxic relationships, the strain is unbelievable. So when I come on steemit and jump into your posts when I am supposed to be sleeping, it is me saying thank you for sharing. It is me saying I am lonely but I am at peace. Good morning @hopehuggs