Couple vibes - In-beetwen the desire of commit a murder and happiness - A woman´s ironic view PART1

When he came through the door back from work, I smiled at him. He went directly into the bedroom to put on his comfortable clothes. I followed him and smiled on. He laid down on our bed with his iPad to check his online stuff. I sat down on the corner of our bed seeing his dirty clothes lying on the floor from the corner of my eyes, but still smiled on. He smiled back... While he probably thought that I am very happy to have him back now, I was chuckeling about how it would be to put my hands around his neck and just choke him. Choke him really hard... AHHHHHHHH, what a joy ! The only fact that really held me back are the legal consequences. :D A lawyer knows how these things work out....!

Welcome to my little world in-beetween the desire of commit a murder and happiness. I´m in a eight-year relationship with this man. This is us:

This is not the smile I have while I am thinking about committing a crime by the way. I´ll show it sometime. I want to keep my secret as long as I can, because @Uffz is very close. Aren´t you honey?!

Being in a long lasting relationship can be a really tough issue. It´s starts when you get up in the morning and see his beard stubbles almost everywhere in the washbasin, see him throwing around these fresh ironed t-shirts out of the wardrobe looking for the perfekt white one for under his shirt (all his fucking shirts are white!!!!) or see him cooking while he leaves the fridge door open for the whole time without even thinking about to close it. And It doesn´t end in the evening when he comes home and throws his stuff around or snores really hard in the night.

I am thinking about making it look like an accident...
I have to reconsider that....

But how would it be without him......?

I know. It would be.........CLEAN!!!