Hi @soltao...sounds like you have been through alot..I'm happy to hear that your Dr. Couldnt hear your afib :) I'm sure that your Dr. Told you not to stress so hard about ED so many men have it even temporarily for a variety of reasons. ..I think yours could be anxiety related...concentrating and focusing on it only worsens it ..and women deal alot better with than you think because as I said it's common. ..anxiety can also cause irregular heartbeats and rythems ...I have them all the time and I was diagnosed with severe panic disorder at 13...I think taking a break from smoking is a good idea and exercise like hiking is even better :) :) keep your mind as busy as possible and anytime suicidal ideas come up refocus on something. ..anything else...I have tried 7 times in my life almost succeeding twice..so believe me I know what I'm talking about ..sending prayers and positive vibes your way:) :)..and following to check in on you every now and again :) :) Kayleigh
Thanks for your kind words! Suicide is a taboo subject because it's such a downer. I would really like to get rid of this toxic shame and recently got back into Emotional Tapping Technique and fast ETF.
As scary as it is to hear from someone who has actually gone through seven attempts, it also makes me realize even thought suicidal thoughts are a taboo, it is an existential threat many of us go through. Hope you're feeling better too :)
I'm not going to lie with all that I have been through my life is a struggle ...but I get better everyday :) :)..anytime you feel bad ..you can talk to me ..someone who's fought that battle time and time again :) :)