It's becoming painful everyday of every night
If it's getting heavy, speak up. Don't try to shove everything inside you because the more you keep it to yourself, the more painful it will become. Be honest with your feelings and talk to those who are important to you. I promise the sooner you let it it out, the better you will feel. You can do it.
Even the most important person doesn't want to talk to me he or she can answer it so things well be better right.