Someone sure makes it easy for this one to write posts

reply to this : https://steemit.com/tyrnannoght/@wakucat/ta940m (very worth reading too btw ,lots of fire and it certainly doesnt feel like jippedee wrote it lol)

"Special" is the least of my concerns lol.

I know my grandma said when she first saw the infant "that's not ours!" so i'm definitely a changeling and indeed so has it felt, all my life detached, like its living in the third person. Autism didnt exist so that kid standing against the wall , living in its own world and from there observing theirs until it knew all patterns didnt think of it, until much later when this one got into being intrested we have to conclude its clearly a similarity.

Mostly still in the third person so this one-dimensional world of left or right is hard to get in because my head's too big to fit in just one (hah hah hah, my english outspeaks native speakers on all sides of the planet sometimes i have noticed)

books, cats

no, cats, oxygen, books yes, all those fabulous works of first Vance, Zelazny and Le Guin , A.E. van Voght and ofcourse ten ton others who never made it to the pop culture enough to have a name like Asimov (who writes good murder mysteries (with robots) like Agatha Christie but i still dont see the science fiction in it) and Clarke, who certainly has merit but the fact that he's the most commonly referred to by the same denomination of denominator should say something too

nine billion names of god still stuck around as that is closer to Van Voght style, real science-fiction as gedanken-experiment worked out in a what-if

pretty sure i was an

you say "un-planned" now, right ? child but cant say any of the physicalities were ever missing, both addamses are very diligent in obligations as such but in essence i think people like that shouldn't have children (and include this one, as i never wanted them im sure i shouldnt have them - because children feel it im sure - i knew i did)

BUT since the first years , like ten or so were spent at grandparents the kid actually was never short of love and huggies as grandma was a very doting grandma

and there too, it didnt stand out, the kid always playing by himself was actually GREAT !

smart kid, very polite, always quiet never trouble, silently playing by itself, what more could you wish for right, top of the class in those skippable years

i think it started moving to 2nd and 3rd once you had to start opening schoolbooks to learn lists of things

then when the bubble got broken by force (i assume still , still assume "to cure the kid from introvert") shit went awry

total incompatibility with the mundane world as perceived by the middle of the bell curve

"norm"al (usually self-proclaimed) people

but that didnt always work

also, most twostreet wide , even in cities sometimes take "normal" as a very localized phenomenon again but im sure i dont have to explain that part to you ( or most of the rest)

... i dont know what would happen if i were born in china during the rise of the dragon or in america in the 1970s when kids like lord british could make money at 14 writing games ... but i sure know that no matter what, a kid like this cant exist in a place like belgium

so since 15 wanted out of here since 20 out of belgium and a bit later, only Asia was far enough and i still think its the only place where i could (personally) feel somewhat comfy with the culture (although there's no way to see i wouldnt be treated like white bloodcells treat a virus either, after all homo sapiens we are not, and i think most of them neanderthals actually still so its only normal that different species on the same spot remove each other - it could be fixed easily if it wasnt for paper law ...)

crazy is a term that means the same as abnormal in all salems lots across the planet im sure

to us id say deviant from the norm is a statistical position

to evolution theory without fringe entities there simply IS no evolution (and i think humans have long since come to a place like that , more so, they're probably DE-volving while they keep outsourcing more and more to the entity of technology)

not that im one of those

forgot the word ... the iconoclasts who were against technology euhm

LUDDITES , right ... see , this too i had to entrust to my external memory which at this point is named google

but in essence, since thoughts exist without words and words are actually hampering the potential of the human brain, i DID get the concept so the word is somewhat irrelevant unless i need to explain it but

theres some tail about "a monk asked buddha" what is fire and the fabled storyteller explains that the first guy who saw fire KNEW it but no matter how much and hard he tried to explain it to everyone else, NO ONE really understood

until someone else saw it and knew it too

like shrinks who have never been inside trying to treat psychosis, they read about it, learned about it, seen it thousand times (in 1000 different forms perhaps)

but they dont know it

... ah there those fingers went off again, and i wasnt gonna lol

thanks for all the votes and nominations

much appreciated, id nominato you too but you seem to be already part of everything

i dont wanna dutch-stereotype but despite your Nietschzes favourite quote type life you seem not to have lost your ability WILL to connect :)

i should say nietschzes most well known

my personl favourite is more like

"those who were seen dancing"
"were deemed crazy"
"by those"
...
who couldnt hear the music

(F. Nietschze)

i doubt most people understand he was talking about romance on the first quote as well, the guy was hopeless ... darkness lol

the original emo

BON

right ...

i might just post this as a post again too then since i got this far down the line typing

it might have broken you

but it didn't destroy you, huh

and personally, if i COULD avoid it i would never have come back to this town

but i already been on the street, once was enough ...its not like i could do what i did back then in my current condition

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