Mind Full Of Thoughts | Vision

My small thoughts soon became palpable thoughts. I think a lot about almost everything. I overthink. My thoughts are not wistful. It somehow depleted my strength. I've started being insecure about my looks, skills, and everything else that concerns me. I have been like this since childhood. Not a confident person. Still, I'm demure.

I see myself as a different person. I might want to be cursory. But I can't.
I do think what other thinks about me? What am I doing here?
What's the purpose of me?
Sometimes I think why do I have so many thoughts?
My thoughts are enigmatic. Like if you ever come to know what I think you'll suggest a doctor.
I dwell on it in most of my thoughts. Can't even explain.
Once I drown myself in those thoughts that I can't abscond from. I couldn't tell anyone. Because I had an apprehension about what they might think. I abhor having such thoughts. Well, I'm glad that, those thoughts haven't made me bigoted.
Those thoughts made me vulnerable. I guess my second or third post was about Overthinking The Curse
the post that was all about my Overthinking. Well, I don't let those feelings have any impact on me.

Besides that, I have a jaunty and jocose personality not a juvenile. Still, I'm demure.
I'm an observer. I observed little things. Little things make me happy. So, making me happy is not a big deal.

Secondly, I've a smiling face. Well, I want to change this. Not saying that I'm rude. I'm pure. But I might have thought that I look like one of those characters in the series called Smiling Women. Those smiles were horrible. 🥸 Ugh...
Somehow I want to become blithe. And in rare cases when I feel no love for the other when I've been treated wrong, I just wish to had an acrid personality.
But I simmer down very quickly. I trail off first then I simmer down. I get angry not so easily but get placid easily. But just let me think and let me in an empty room. It's pretty easy for me to wipe myself up. I just don't bungle the situation because of my anger. I prefer peace.

I like it when I see people happy together. That makes me happy too. Being with the good companies and being quiet brings me peace. Well, even when I'm with the close ones I still don't talk a lot. I just think. One of my friends used to say that we have to wake you up. You are sleeping with open eyes sometimes. And we have to talk first.
Such people in your life are a blessing.⚘️
I want to he happy and want to make others happy too. I don't care about my negative thoughts. One day I'll overcome. I genuinely think those who are not overthinkers are affluent in their life.