we'll just stay on planet retro , wehter its 5 more years or 40 ...

Its a good thing we stacked up a few things before the 0 money tipping point arrived ... gud thing we saw the future but the nasty part is we saw the future for all but our own

If we did we wouldnt have tried seven times to get out of hell, knowing that we would end in the very place the boy hated since 15 and the country we wanted out of since 21

I think in and outdoor, trash and government jobs and extra-curricular (...) activities we tried about everything but armed robbery and pimping

EVEN CRYPTO but for some reason the curse of drukkerland won't let us

TOO BAD ... i hope no one expects anything in return but what we have been handed

Watching Lu's new compactvid brings out a great topic we personally been waiting for

SOMEONE DESIGNED THEIR OWN COMPUTER THAT DIDNT EXIST BEFORE TO RUN ON THE MISTER FPGA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

...

Woke up with my knee hurting before even going down the stairs today ...

THIS IS THE SHIT ... although it seems to be very early and i cant see any downloads for it or any link to any kind of IDE or docs on how to program it but actually ever since i got a mister (full price from spain original version in a soapbox case) been waiting for these things to arrive AND

well the jaguar is there (more or less) and an Atari Falcon core is nowhere to be seen (the main reason more or less other than the fact that it actually got sold as an amiga 1200 back then, "hardware accurate" ... and we couldnt afford the real thing already

AN IDE WOULD BE REALLY NICE HERE ...

"risc cpu" with 2sids and a custom gpu probably doesnt work opening up a can of 6510 ACME opcodes , the memory layout the pointers the pages

"the map of the piano" but in fact a full IDE with a lingo even better, now that would probably mean someone else has to pick that up

still ... programming is something we can still do

this is kinda nice

ofcourse, as all projects and enterprises, we won't by lying awake checking tooter every 5 minutes to see if its there yet

but it would be nice to see this finished and programmable with comprehensive docs and a full map of the piano

https://misterfpga.org/viewtopic.php?f=14&p=103559#p103559

Im gonna keep that one open in a browser tab to see if it follows up (sometimes those things take years but frankly my dear ... how long does it take Oblivion to do Outer World with microsoft money and how long does it take FROM to do Elden Ring with blamco money ??? this guy does it solo with no money so the timeframe should be pretty fair ...)

One hour out of bed , slept to the alarm clock , and man i'm tired ... yesterday while squatting a little to do something the right knee almost gave out and almost lost balance while the left one snapped a little

we'll have to stick to our prediction of "crutches or wheelchair in five to ten years"

but its okay since last time i went to the doctor it was nothing and not even worth going to a hospital or getting a scan so this level of pain and sinking through your legs is nothing to worry about

Life has been good, the old man seems to be losing the difference between front and back (tho not between left and right i bet) and old lady addams had a heart muscle correction (second) this week , again.

We got no income and i literally have to beg for money to see a doctor who mostly ignores most of what i say (thats the impression i get) and i have no idea what happened to the last two exams for the potential tumor (which was "probably nothing to worry about" but colleague 1 and colleague two "dont really know what it is") and the intestines which had strange pains ...

but no one sent a message mail or call yet

i bet they'll send the bills though

for which i'll have to rely on family again, its like being 12 year old again ! xept with a 90 year old body while im not really that old yet

dont pay much attention to a world that didnt give me any so i bet EVERYTHING'S GREAT, WALLSTREETS BOOMING SO THE ECONOMY IS RECOVERING, A.I. breakthroughs finally get cold fusion within five years, the russians will lose the war next week and China is at the end of its rope

and europe is saved by modi i hear, couldnt miss that one, twas like hallelujah bells and stuff

so ... consumer prices should be back to pre-covid now IM SURE THEY ARE

... not much worth wasting time on any of that since it gets us nothing and we can do nothing in it anymore

Murray released another vid, of the type that made him "THE" 8bit guy

which is always a treat (people doing what they like most usually ends up with the best stuff .. if you already have money and dont go sponsor first)

the guy is an american from Texas so phasing in his own games and machines in every video is more or less forgiven as the american fenotype seems to have something that wont allow them not to sell you something in every word they say.

I mean, its informative and full and its not a salesvid disguised as info

like it as always

and ...

menialities are waiting, being the least disabled in the house and now made 100% dependent with no way out its only natural that we pick up our part ...

slowly

i wouldnt wanna crash down the stairs if my knee decides to do that halfway

RIGHT

who knew this ending was even possible for a kid like that ??? the worst statistical anomaly

its like quantum zero probability for this to happen to a smart white suburban kid

but this is belgium

and belgium today isnt quite what it was in the 80s either ...

there is no "theres always a way" and there is no "just try" here

lasciate ogni esperanza

voi che entrate

xept the refugees perhaps ... if you dont end up in a squat dump you or prostitution or as human spare parts for the triads

you might end up in a place thats safer and cleaner than where you came from

i dont know if they overboard many lately but frankly my dear

which is probably salvation otherwise i bet the catham joker would have taken over a long time by now

enjoy the end of days

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hmm ... 5:56 now ... dished whatever dishes, cleaned up some sink and table kitchen, sorted the laundry and put it on ... im ready to go back to bed for a good hour now. Im about 12 minutes into Murray's video which has been on and off as i drag myself around with laundry and other stuff, im gonna finish that and this cup of cocoa and probably crawl in bed with my little brother-friend who's not an ornament and maybe a few rounds of tempest 2k or just

some movie or old stuff - last hollywood thing i saw i think was the movie where they ended professor x and the wolverine for a new generation of lamer-heroes ... i havent seen a star wars since the clone wars and that was b/c the clone wars felt meh if it wasnt for Saruman there wouldnt have been much to it

technically speaking, if i were to do such grave terrorist illegal things it feels like i wouldnt download them for free even if i could anymore

since THE a.i. even less ...

last one i saw in theatres was the Hobbit ... THERE finally Jackson pushed through and did what he should have for LOTR : made the small book into a whole trilogy of movie .... LOTR should have been nine probably but yea

salesforce again

i meaaan, shyamalan isnt the worst in the pack by far but look what they did to airbender : they crammed like several seasons into an 80 minute movie .. WHAT DO YOU EXPECT FROM THAT ?

Last time i made it out of belgium in the same year i took a last minute to Venice (which is now my number one city in the world, really the only place in Europe where i could envision living ... would take millions ofcourse, which isnt a pipe dream if you're not born dead in salems lot, belgium) and Paris ... went from sunset on the 56th of montparnasse to sunrise on the stairs of the sacre coeur in the art district on whats that hill again

Montmartre, right (man .... i wonder if im going premature like my cousin and uncle lately sometimes) ... Dali museum and there was this AWESOME expo by a guy named Patrick Rubinstein with what they called kinetic art (i tink) you could view the picture (i doubt that was handpainted with a brush and palate) from two sides to get two frames ....

so i could hi culture and pretend its my every day but i think my personal life and interest are a lot more interesting to ventilate

whatever it gets someone else or not

(insert duchovny gif here)

As i took out the kitty litter box (can hardly go out with the man if my right leg feels like its gonna crack anytimre and IM TIRED MAN , since january with all the shit here its like my condition has accelerated to the next level in just a few weeks but since its non-existing i dont have to worry about all that, just like decision making is 1000% easier when you have no income , the answer is really simple: "NOpe .." , cant ... )

I see the lights in the nuthouse are on, if oyu just poke your nose out the door in this two street wide salems pocket dimension you can not not see or hear it all , one of the axioms of Gatzlavick.

Of all nights, now ? Rumours have (but these are salems rumours) inthere the nut has had their children disparented on request of the children themselves who called the police fearing they were gonna kill them (parents) ... with a cause ranging from drugs to drugs ( ...) theres an obvious case of psychosis at least but i personally dont know whats in the past. With this hodgepodge from all kind of countries ranging from ethnic cleansing as a tradition to boko haram will take your daughter now and other kinds of -cides and -isms

pick one ...

its no surprise you get disfunctional zones and moreoever what else is a social housing hood than a social dumpster ? that applies anywhere where you find salems lot im sure

not just here

RUMORS AS I SAID, if you're one of the stalkers and read this dont go shouting "THATS NOT ME" cuz everyone will think it is if you do

(pro tip ! )

Lights are on all night all over the place while you wont see anyone by day but a car on the driveway that never moves and in lots of other places only when school starts and ends ... im not sure what that is, some kind of status thing, it doesnt seem limited to non-ethnic belgians ... so many during the night that if this were the days of brussels metro and bataclan half the place would be under suspicion of harbouring terrorists. I remember gatlandpolice calling on all citizens to WARN WHEN YOU SEE SOMEONE HAVE THE LIGHTS ON AT NIGHT back then ... because thats when the terrorists ....

i mean ... all the while in molenbeek those fuckers must have been shoveling whole palettes of bleach and cooking it up all night must have smelled the street down ... no one ... just like anders breyvik, right ... NO ONE IN ANY STASI or other saw anything until after it happened ...

hmmm , well "no comment" ... law enforcement is not my domain ... im drifting hmmmm .... i lose focus even easier lately

strangely enough the sole survivor of that, the belgian guy from molenbeek used to be a jetset nightlife fuse-going incrowd guy who had his own bar

and suddenly saw the light , started praying , bought a kalashnikovv, teamed up and started bleaching shirts

the consequences should be known so its not about social situation there ...

the guy had nothing short of anything, environment, money, pussy i bet if he was fuse-going ...

STILL ...

anyway ...

they just cleaned out some of the lower houses (lower on the hill) someone disappeared, the woman didnt know where her children were, they found like five dogs and five cats inthere, so i fear the worst for the animals

i could care less about the humans

do unto others, you know ?

the usual since 1980 more or less, the couleur locale so to speak has changed but een gat is een gat and salems lot is salems lot

no matter where you go

...

Guess i'll finish murrays video and take to bed again

the mister core would be nice, with what i could gather before point zero , including that olimex neo and agonlight2 with the 6502 and the Z80 respectively, if i make it to 90 not demented and with one functional finger that still moves despite arthritis since 30 i can still Hawking my way around a keyboard and write retro games

but i think thats about it

with no income i cant play the lottery either so even dreaming of getting out has been blocked by this shithole

het gatste gat in gatland

always positive ? makes me nauseous

shit aint like that

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6:35

"and ofcourse there is Quarx!"

what did i tell ya :p

but in thise case we dont hold it against him, no matter what the guy puts a lot into it and always seems to put information over sponsors (or own products) from all the vids i ever watched

O yasumi then, short night short day short night short day, still thinking it might be possible to not slip in a 3cycle but its not certain anymore and one thing is in my experience with this non existing condition :

when it gets worse it never reverts

which corellates with research i read from countries and places where it does exist : after x years the chances of getting better or rid of it aka cured go down fast and from there quickly move to quantumzero (our zero since zero doesnt really exist anywhere that i know of but in theory)

the futures looking bright

but we already knew that since 30 years ago

WE JUST

NEVER

imagined we would have to sit it out in het gatste gat which we hate the most since 15 and have done nothing but try to get out of and stay away from since 20

and now

we cant even buy a lottery ticket ... and i cant say its because of MY decisions ...

too bad, better luck next time if karma is a thing the next life should be awesome however

maybe we'll just stay in the sea of being, if everyone's there and we dont have to come back looking for the rest

HOWEVER we already gave the gods notice

if they put us back here we commit sepukku in the womb or strangle the uterus with our ambilical cord for an instand reset

I NEVER WANT TO LIVE IN A GALAXY THAT HAS HUMANS IN IT AGAIN