Thug Curator Life

Yo fellow Steemians.

Hope you're doing great and having a great day. I am currently on my job until 6 AM and since I don't have time to post during the day, I am writing this post now. Let's hope boss will not see me xD

In this post I want to talk about my curation and what I do and how does it reflect on me. Lately, I've been having some health issues as it seems I am under stress and don't know how to relax a bit.

I started my Steem curation journey with @steemgc last year in August.

As I am gamer myself, this was an exciting and new thing for me. I gotta thank @strawhat for putting his trust in me, I hope I am still doing a good job.

As I am a giver more than a taker, curating was and still is my dream job and I am really enjoying it. It just feels good that I can support someone that invested their time to provide good quality content and help in bringing this blockchain on another level.

After I started with @steemgc, I soon found myself as a curator on @vimm also.

I was hosting my Whack Curation Show on DLie and Vimm where I donated Steem/Sbd to streamers and after a while, I was offered to be a curator for Vimm. This was still in early early adoption time when Vimm just started its journey.

Once again, since I like to support people and since that is my passion, it was easy to take that role and help Vimm to be a competition to DLie and hopefully bring this blockchain up.

That's just me, I always try to bring this blockchain up, then some dapp on it, then community and if anything is left for me, then I will help me a bit. If not, all kewl...

So, I started to curate for 1 gaming community (steemgc) and one platfortm (vimm) on our blockchain.

And I felt so great! It just felt that I am finally contributing to this blockchain and I had big hopes that I will help. After a half of year of trying to help, I am doing that now and I am planning to make this long term shizzle.

I wanted to get used to this kind of life on Steem, so my days were mostly made of streaming and having fun and then curating.

I must say that I had a big help from other curators on Vimm and Steemgc but unfortunatelly, after some time, the other curator for @steemgc left and I started to handle curation alone.

The bear market took its toll and I saw a lot of people leaving, despite being supported, so it got me a bit demotivated. Luckily, I am here for long terms so it didn't affect me as others. But you know, it left some mark.

The months passed and I started to write Daily and Weekly Curation Reports for steemgc. We wanted to be transparent and highlight some gamers every week. Due to lack of engagement, we stopped with Weekly Reports but I continued to write the Daily Report.

Some were saying that bull market will begin in February or March so I was lookin forward to it. But nothing, nothing and nothing. Again, a bit of demotivation but all kewl.

This was a time where I was streaming on Vimm, creating gaming videos on DTube and curating. It seems like a great combination of time, fun and good work. But nothing great lasts for too long.

2 months ago, I was given an offer to curate for another BIG Steem community, if not the biggest. I don't want to say what community because of the risk of getting spammed on Discord.

I took this job seriously as any other but I knew that this time I have a bigger influence and I can support more people, thus helping this blockchain.

Now, I found myself curating for one community and 2 platforms. It seems that my time was getting shrunked but I didn't mind because I knew that I will do this job good and that it will help everyone.

But guess what? Apparently, my curation shizzle is not stopping there. Got another offer, this time from @ocd and this one is like I got curation graduation.

I really respect what @acidyo is doing with his account and with OCD. I think a lot of whales should come down from their Egoship to listen and learn from Acid. Maybe your ROI would be bigger in a long term, you never know... -.-'

Anyway.......

This is where I am at now. I am curating for @steemgc, @vimm, @ocd any one other big community. I am enjoying it but it seems that I took this way too seriously.

Since I got my job in RL, my time got scarce but I am working night shifts so I can handle it, kinda. But this also means that I am more sleepy and in need of a rest. That also means that I am more nervous and under stress as my skin started to show.

I went to a doctor and she told me that I need to calm the fuck down = relax.

I knew stress could probably be the factor but it is my first time to feel it this way this much so I didn't quite believe that it will happen to me. But it seems I am more a human than a Spacely I though I were :)

So, now I need to find a balance where I don't need to feel constantly under some pressure or stress. It seems like everyday something is waiting for me and even if I do it, it feels like I am not contributing nor helping my self grow.

That's a crazy feeling that I want to get rid of but first I need to take some things lightly and care for my health. Add to this that my leg is still not healed 100% and you'll understand me a bit.

Oh, and I almost forgot about my SteemSTEEM PROMO project where I am promoting our blockchain to 35k people on FB.

Don't know what to do and I don't have any idea. I don't want to leave any community because I believe they will have a big impact in time to come and that I can help a lot. But I need to change my day and this is how it looks like:

• waking up around 10AM because I work until 6AM (sleepy)

• curating for @vimm (saying Hi to streamers and curating them)

• curating for @steemgc (writing a Daily Curation Report and curating gamers)

• finding a post for @ocd (this curation often takes almost all day because I need to find the best post from that day so it is time consuming + once a (2) week(s) I am writing OCD Daily Issue)

• curating for that community (this is taking a bit of time since I need to check out every video and curate it properly)

• finding good science posts for SteemSTEM PROMO project (once a week writing a Weekly Recap and once a month I am writing a Monthly Recap)

• I initiated #seven77torch challenge on Twitter to bring more awerness of Steem so I need to check out on that also

And this is only what I do for this blockchain and others. I still got me to take care of.

• go live and stream on Vimm

• create a gaming video on Dtube

• every now and then, create Actifit post

I think that's it. I think I got under more stress just by writing this.

Anyway, now that I cried my river, i just want to find a way to handle this better so that I don't feel like shit like I am feeling lately.

Constantly some pressure is in the air, around me. Can I handle it and for how long?

We will see.

Mr. Spacely, yours stressed out curator :))

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