I really feel for your pain because in life you flowed so much tears, and yes if in an relationship we have doubt then that relationship will become just spending an time with the mask means a time will come when the process of doubt will deeply question oneself and in turn it will hurt the relationship by questioning the worth of each other in an relationship. When we engage with people who enjoy their own company they are the people who knows the real essence of life means if one cannot love himself/herself then they cannot love anyone in real essence but they can just do the act of love which will one day have to open the mask of acting. Thanks for sharing this post with us and wishing you an great day and life ahead. Stay blessed. 🙂