It Was Not Only Silence

But, but, oh, wow. What's fascinating is, how long is it, is those trajectories for sure? How long did it take you before, from, from when you realized how wrong everything you believed was and the, and what you'd been indoctrinated into to, to come out of it? Was it just, was it just a God thing? Was it, was it, was it a, did you have guidance? Did this pastor help you out along the way? What was that process like? Yeah, there was a big repentance process, because I realized that I had been a useful idiot, because that's what the leftists do. They, those, the puppet masters who are the ones who want the power, they use their foot soldiers, soldiers as, as useful idiots.

And it's a process, because I, I repented when I realized, when I had this aha moment six years ago, but it's still happening. For example, a couple of, a couple of weeks ago, I saw a friend of mine who was born in Cuba, and, but he is, he is in his 70s now, and he is very American, and he loves this country, and he's a lawyer, but he posted a song from a young man in Cuba. And it was so moving, because he was talking about the horrible things that are happening in Cuba.

And I had this guilt coming up again, that I had been a useful idiot, believing that Cuba was like paradise. And I had been part of that, of keeping that island as it was, because I was not questioning what happened. And I started sobbing.

And it took me like 10 minutes to, to come back to me. And I realized that that was also part of the repentance. And so it's something that happened at one moment, six years ago, but it's still, it's still coming up, evidently.

Oh, wow. Sheesh, that's, that's really something. So you thought, you thought you had, you thought because you didn't, you thought because you didn't speak up when, when, when, when all those people were going through all those things in Cuba, you thought therefore that your silence had contributed to everything that they had gone through after you, after you repented, or throughout the process of you repenting for everything that you had, that you had done? Yeah, it was not only silence, I was an intellectual, and I was a professor.