I have been really enjoying reading your posts and it sucks to hear that you feel that way. I hope you will find what you're looking for and stay safe along the way. To be honest, I wasn't expecting to hear anything like this from you but I guess we all have our own struggles and hardships.
I saw that you mentioned me in this post but haven't seen the post itself on my feed, thought it was weird then it turned out that somehow I wasn't following you. :O I went through my following list recently and probably messed up a little bit in the process of unfollowing some people. :)
Wishing you the best of luck, I still hope that you will share some posts every now and then. ❤️
Thank you very much for your good wishes :) In the end I was able to pull myself together and manage the impatience that was killing me. You're right, we all hace our struggles and hardships, I try to stay positive but once a month I have my sensitive day where everything crumbles.
The thing is that lockdown was declared in my country and my mind was like: "oh fuck, now I'm definitely trapped here for who knows how long, I need to get out, I need to get out or I'll never leave this farm".
Today I spent pretty much all day lying on the floor looking at the ceiling and trying to get a grip, until I finally got it, lol. Took it's precious time.
Thanks again, I'll try to keep up the posting but at the same time I feel I need to spend more time away from Steem, I'm not doing things in a healthy balanced way. Hope you're faring well in this enormous social chaos the world is living!
Taking some time away from the Internet is always a good idea especially when one is not feeling their best.
I understand that many people feel the same way, like they are locked down, it takes away a lot of our freedom but I actually think being on the farm, countryside is the best option in this situation. Imagine being in the city apartment, where you only have a balcony maybe to "get out". :D
Anyways, glad to hear you're feeling better, maybe that initial anxiety is going away, keep doing what makes you feel better, even if that means taking an online break. :)
Yeah, taking it easy now. Just enjoying, trying to be useful and letting go of control!