How I am being Schrödinger in the midnight!

Have you ever woken up in the midnight and then didn't fall asleep again? Yeah, I know it's the worst feeling ever. No matter how much you try to fall asleep again, it's not at all easy to get a good sleep again though. I was always like, who the hell is operating my sleep at 3:00 am in the morning? I thought I'm not falling asleep, because I'm trying to. So let me try not to fall asleep. Then I might fall asleep. Waited for 10 mins, and realized whatever I'm thinking is the same person who was thinking that I should just not try to feel asleep. So am I trying and not trying to fall asleep at the same time?
Schrödinger: Nice, Nice.

Then I would choose Netflix. Continued watching the 'Friends' series. But surprisingly, that was not funny. Not really. Cause, some bloody part of me already know this shit that 'this is just to fall asleep, not to laugh'. I'm like what the fuck. Then I would watch one complete episode. Just to justify that even if It's not funny to me right now, it's not that 'Friends' is not funny. So 'Friends' was funny and not funny to me at the same time.
Schrödinger: Nice, Nice.

I opened YouTube, now look how unreal I can go. I played this sound of rain drops shower on my headphone and then tried closing my eyes. Yes it was tempting. But still not enough to nullify the will of that operator who probably doesn't want me try fall asleep. It was not raining outside, but I tried telling my brain, it is, when my brain knows it fucking isn't. Now I wanted my headphones on, but don't want it at the same time cause if I win this all and fall asleep, my ears would hurt by the morning.
Schrödinger: Nice, Nice.

What if we had two brains, and one of them could lie or tell shit to the other. And the other just believe it. Like if one of the brain which is actually by *my side, would insist the other. I know they say you have heart that has different feeling than your brain. But man, heart is a dumbass. My brain wants fucking another brain who it can lie. It was ok to lie to heart too but it's hard when the heart has hard time taking decisions.

Well as I am reading it again, I have no idea whether it's all making sense or not. If it is, ok. If it's not, it was humor lol.