Hey, I'm sorry if things are a little difficult now. I don't know as much about your condition as I should considering I studied psychology in university. I hope I don't say anything too ignorant or offensive, if I do please forgive me.

I can tell you one thing, doctors don't know everything. I have been proving them wrong my whole life. A diagnosis is basically a comparison with what's "normal", but normal is defined by a culture, not by nature. You might be capable of things they say you are not capable of. I have a friend who "overcame" his autism, he still thinks very differently from other people but he has found ways to understand and connect with others and function much better among "normal" people. He has done this through his own experimentation.

Everyone is different but you will find that more things become possible when you believe that they are possible.

I think you have a good attitude. You want to improve yourself and that's really the first big step to making improvement. If you believe in yourself, I believe in you.

If you want any PDFs of english books i will see if i can find them for you. Feel free to ask me questions about English too, I teach languages. As for improving your body, search youtube for exercises you can do without any equipment. There are lots of ways to improve your body. I should try some too.

I hope this was helpful!