Hey @nobutsd - the pressure is immense in this role and relentless. Just remember that you are appreciated and also loved here in the Steemit community. We're here for you in PAL so don't forget that too.

Don't ever feel bad for expressing your feelings here even if you think a post is too short - it's a way to connect with other humans. You're also right about Christmas being a trigger - it's something I've written about a couple of times now but mostly from the addict/recovery side. Much love and peace during this time.