Confessions of a Reluctant Substance abuse Worker - Volume ?
Those of you who follow me regularly know that I am the Resident Manager at a 16-bed Christian Transitional Housing Program for men with addiction and compulsion issues. I never had a desire to be in the substance abuse field, nor have I ever had any illusions about this being a career that I am going to pursue.
I attend school for Digital Media Audio and Cinema and being the Resident Manager here allows me the opportunity to save some money and get my finances in order while I attend school.
Recently there have been some things that have caused me to question whether I am going to be able to continue to do this job for much longer. I feel that I am reaching the point of diminishing returns in what I get in satisfaction seeing guys change their lives, versus the stress that comes everyday from doing the job.
Could it be.....CHRISTMAS?!?
I know there is a lot of emotional baggage that comes with the holiday season, and this being my first year of celebrating Christmas after my mother has passed, I have to gauge my emotional response to that. I also have to take into consideration that the people I deal with, and the other staff all have their own issues they have to deal with during the holidays.
I have been feeling a little under appreciated around here lately. I have also been sick with a cold and not feeling well. Add into that the end of the semester and dealing with the pressure of final projects and exams....Maybe I need to just take a step back and re-evaluate where I am at and where I am coming from.
I have a lot to be thankful for. 2 years ago I lived under a bridge.
I know this is short and hardly worth posting and, I don't know why, but I feel better now from writing this, I know I was whiny, but thanks for listening.
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I would wait to truly evaluate until after the holidays. Being in the "caretaking" field is difficult, for sure. And especially if you're living close to that situation and working the hours or are working... It makes sense that you are getting run down. Don't be afraid to take some time off if you need it!
Thank you! I am feeling much better after writing about it honestly...
Hey @nobutsd - the pressure is immense in this role and relentless. Just remember that you are appreciated and also loved here in the Steemit community. We're here for you in PAL so don't forget that too.
Don't ever feel bad for expressing your feelings here even if you think a post is too short - it's a way to connect with other humans. You're also right about Christmas being a trigger - it's something I've written about a couple of times now but mostly from the addict/recovery side. Much love and peace during this time.
Thanks Brother! I really appreciate it, I really felt better after just writing a little about it yesterday.