I know exactly what you feel like. I've just emerged from a deep, black hole (in my head) that lasted for a few weeks.
But please don't cut yourself short. I know it's kinda like a defense mechanism to say things like: I'm stupid. Etc. And I know you sometimes try to joke your way out of the blues...
And man, having a loved one (especially your mother) that is deteriorating in front of your eyes is very painful, I know. But even though that's the case, you can still visit her, and you never know: they have their good moments too. Just being there for her might do you some good too. And never forget those great times you had with her!
You're an amazing guy and don't let anyone ever tell you otherwise!
Hugs all the way from Ireland.
Those prolonged funks are terribly hard to cope with. Been there sadly. Glad you found your way through it.
Joking definitely helps. Honestly, getting wrapped up in a good story helps me. Be it a book, movie, show...it helps me get my mind into something different. That and the pups. 😉
You are always so sweet and I look forward to ya swapping stories in November in Thailand!!! Happy ones or sad. It’ll be the company that’s important. ❤️
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I know joking helps. The greatest comedians have histories of depression or at least the blues at times. Most of them are also highly intelligent so that should tell you something...😉
And yes, some sort of distraction like a movie or book works for me too, even if it's just for a moment. Comedies work like a charm, and even chick flicks, something I usually never watch (bring out the tissues!!!).
And pups??? There is just nothing better than live fur babies! Of pretty much any kind. And human babies (when they're not crying or screaming LOL).
I'm already getting excited for Thailand, still lots to do and take care of, but excited nevertheless. The company is everything. The location will absolutely help. ❤️
Yeah I love getting sucked into a compelling story. Totally helps me through the darkness.