A woman out of misery

Chapter One

Learning from childhood was very good, and the school was first.Because there was no dad at the age of 9; there were 9 children at home; the oldest sister was only 18 years old... everything at home was to be dealt with by her mother.At that time, her mother was helpless. She said to us, "You and your elder brother can only go to school one, and the other one goes up to work in the mountains.In those days, the boy was higher than the girl. My older brother went to school, and I went to the mountains every day to do physical work. The teacher of the school rushed over and said to my mother every day: “It is a pity that girls with such good results do not read books. Studying so earnestly." When my mother told me to go to school, my family did not have any money, but how much I wanted to read it, and at the same time understand my mother's difficulties. So when the teacher came, I cried once and cried for a whole month. .The youngest sister was still not born in his mother’s belly. When her sister was born, the mother reluctantly said, “A few of you just let me toss about. Just a few days ago, in the village, the villager told me that he liked children very much. When I was born, I gave it to him, so I had to give it to him...” and I’d rather I wouldn’t like to see my sister orphan again when I was tired again. So I said to my mother, “Don’t give it to my sister. Oh well, I don’t want to see my sister be orphaned.” After I finished dripping tears on my face, my mother sighed. She shook her head and said to me, “Can't you mess up here?” If the younger sister doesn't hold it, I will take care of it at home and not work on the mountain. Will you drink in the northwest wind?” So I hugged my mother and hug her mother’s knee and cried and said, “Now, my sister? You are the first to take care of you at home. We went uphill to work. When my sister is older, I can carry her on the hill to work?” Her mother said to me: “In fact, I took my sister and gave it to my mother. Very reluctant But now your elder brother is still studying. Your embarrassment has gone so early. What did you say to do?” After seeing it, she saw her mother sigh deeply. We were all together and weeping and wept; we went back to school to study and thought that we could only secretly hide in the bottom of my heart. Every day we had to go to the mountains to work, and we had to go to work in the mountains. What we eat most of the day is the soup soup. Even the bowl of rice porridge did not have to be eaten, let alone rice, and there was no one meal to eat. It is not warm to wear. Even if the snow is freezing in the winter, you can only wear a thin trousers. When the Chinese New Year is over, you see other girls wearing their new clothes.

Later he came to a fierce fifteen and had thought that the day could be a little easier; after a while, he would have looked a bit; he might think I was just right with his son and let me marry his son. He also had an idea that he would like to add a pro in this way. When he is old, he will rely on it. If I don’t want to, he will be jealous and deliberately make things difficult for me. I’m rather willing to be jealous and unwilling. Going to marry someone you don’t like; those dirty clothes, trying to get me to wash it, trying to do it? Can only be washed off, while washing clothes while shed tears; at the age of 15 let me go to buy a hundred kilograms of eucalyptus to sell money, took a trip to the shoulder when the mountain to stand up once, twice I couldn't stand up and was overwhelmed by a hundred kilograms of eucalyptus; I remembered my father at the moment; if my father and I were living, it wouldn’t make me suffer from it. I sat on the ground and wept and wept. With tears of grievances, they still have to take down the mountain to sell their money; every day they are overwhelmed by a hundred kilos of pressure on their shoulders. People aged 15 are almost as tall as their 10-year-old counterparts. They often go home. After the beating, I remember once at the door of the house. When the Houyi said that I was to marry his son, I gave a mouthful. He picked up a stick with a big handle and was about to fight. I tried my best to run. When he went out, he threw it over to me. Fortunately, I flashed quickly and I couldn’t be overwhelmed. My mother is also afraid of being paralyzed...

Chapter two

At the age of 21, when he went to a village to learn to dress, he had to go to the mountains every morning to pick up the tasks he had assigned before he could go 5 miles to learn to dress; and the tasks assigned were not less than those of other children at home. Sometimes more than other sisters, Houyi told me: "Don't go to school when you do clothes. You can't learn it anyway." I said with a little confidence: "No, I want to study, not only to learn We must learn better..." I just want to say that you said that if you don't learn, I will learn to give you a look. After you sneer three times, I sarcastically said, "Okay, you have to learn better. I'll give you three months, if I learn it in three months, I will give you a sewing machine after my clothes are done." I replied with confidence: "Okay, I'll just say..." In the township training class, the training class had a total of 10 apprentices and a master teacher. When the teacher taught us back formulas, I didn’t know many words because I read the first grade books. The apprentices laughed and some of them sat in me and mocked me: "Oh, these words I do not know have the nerve to come to this place to learn to make clothes, in my opinion, or go home early to sleep now ... "I had to ridicule by their dormitory ...After half a month passed, because they all had the opportunity to practice while teaching the sewing machine, I had to lay back in the dormitory to carry the formula. Some of the characters did not know and asked the next master. One day the master asked me, “Dawn, you I stayed in the dorm room for half a month. What did I learn?” Then I told the master to listen to the entire formula. The master separated after a long time and remembered sincerely saying: “How could you be back? I said?” Then I took them to the classroom and deliberately asked them, “You laughed at dawn so badly, and who did you formulate your backs?” No one said they would back, and then the master asked me to be in the classroom. I listened to them and listened to them. After listening to my back, they were stupid; then the master said to me with enthusiasm: "It's a pity that you keep such a good memory and stay in your dorm every day. Then you use my The sewing machine learns it..." I quickly said gratefully: "Thank you master! Thank you!" After learning this for 3 months, a lot of clothes will be done. Later, I started to help others with clothes while studying. No money to pay tuition fees with the master. The Then met a young man in the village to serve as a soldier in the county, love at first sight! The next day I will go to the army and make an appointment to write letters for three days and two. My feelings are very good. He must let me wait for him to return for three years. Waiting to wait, there are also several young people chasing the young man in the village. I, but I was rejected, silly, etc...

I don't know how to get there over the past three years. Every morning when I get up, I have to go to the mountain and do something. Since I refuse to marry his son, I have always been obsessed with it. Let me finish... After coming back from the mountain at 8 or 9 o'clock, I'll go and help people to make clothes. Even if it's freezing in the winter, drops of water on the table will immediately form ice, and I will sit in the people's doorway to work. I will make a wage of two cents a day. In the evenings, when I come back home, I also sneak at me from time to time. Whoever told you not to marry my son should let you wait for it, but he also has to bear the desire and pain of waiting. The people in the village, including his parents, took me as their daughter-in-law. After three years, he took a look at the other women and looked at the woman. When I saw it, I went to work in Shandong Garment Factory and went to work from the morning at 6: 00 to sleep until 3:00 in the morning, sleep for 3 hours a day, and sometimes at night his eyes go unconscious, and when the head slowly goes down and hits the sewing machine, the entire person is surprised, then lifts his head and starts A bag, hand to touch the bag on the head, have to continue to work, there are staff in the supervision; work in Shandong took a few years and spent some money to return home to a small town at the age of 27 to open a tailor In the clothing store, the business is always very good. It is always open and the technology is very good. Every time I go to the county town, I see the style of clothes hanging in the store and come back and hang up in my shop the next day. At that time, I It is amazing to see...

Third chapter

In the spring of the following year, one day a couple of boys came to my shop to start talking about clothes and then turned around in the store without a fancy dress. When I saw these people, I didn’t look like clothes. Because the clothes on them look a little less than a hundred, so I asked with a smile: "Does these expensive clothes have a fancy?" A person called Hua Ping's touched face and said: " Heck, these clothes look like they don't like it any more. There are other styles?” I asked the suspect question: “Oh, your purpose is not to look at clothes, not to look at your clothes. My clothes can be brandless, but the quality is good!” One of them was Wang Jiangao. He took his mouth and said, “Well, we do things in the neighborhood. It’s not time yet. Stop and don't bother you..." I said quickly: "No! No. Since time has not yet arrived, sit here."I was busy dragging the stool under the table and greeted them to sit down. Then I called the apprentice to pour a cup of boiling water for each of them. It was just that the apprentice had no physical life, so I would chat with them in the way. I was cutting out. Cloth. After a long time, some of them chatted with each other... After a few of them left, I quizzically asked the apprentice: “Why, ah, a few kilograms will be so familiar with them? I can remind You, don’t give them a lie when you are...” The apprentice said, “Oh, how could it be!” After a few days they came again. I joked with them and said: “These bosses came to work nearby. Ah?" Huaping smiled and said: "Oh, today nothing, come to your shop to play, how, do not welcome?" I was busy explaining: "How could you? Welcome! Easy to sit ..." Huaping then Somewhat more interested, he asked, "Hey, the first two days are your apprentices. Why aren't you today?" I asked a bit of jokingly, "What ah, isn't this one of you who has taken a fancy to my apprentice? She..." Huaping said a little slyly: "Where is it! Just look at her today and ask when she is not there." I said: "She said something is going to come later today, or do you sit first? I'm still a little bit Go ahead..." They spoke in unison He said: "You busy you are busy!" After a child tall man came up to build a Meihuazhaohua chatted with me since: "! Hey, boss seems so busy store business is not bad."I humbly replied: "Well, busy is very busy, but can not earn a few dollars a day; what like you, ah, a day to step on the West can make big money ..." Jian Gao touched his nostrils and said: " You see I'm very relaxed now! When we're busy, we don't even have time to eat." It means I'm not convinced with what I say. I smiled, I was curious and asked, "Oh, what are you doing? What?” Jian Gao confidently said: “What are you doing? I have a factory in Shanghai and I have a lot of customer relationships. Do you say I’m not busy?” I sincerely praise: "This is so powerful, so young will be able to be alone, and afterwards, the future will be immeasurable." Jian Gao smiled and said: "Oh, where is this? Ah, yes, I want to make a shirt for you, I see These styles are all pretty good for you. Can I have a good cloth?” I didn’t believe it. I thought he was teasing me. Then I said, “Just kidding, how do you guys wear these clothes?” Jian Gao said: "You say how you are so hypocritical, you take it A little cloth helps me to do it! "Look at him very seriously, then I said:" Well, first measure the body scale ..." I put down my hand and then took a tape measure to help him measure the lower body The size was recorded, and then I told him: "Let's do this. You come back after four or five days. There are many people's clothes on this, so it will be longer." Jian Gao nodded and said, "It's okay. , that money will be given to you now." I said, "It's okay. The money will come when it's time to get your clothes and give it..." After two or three days, I came again. I thought he was coming to get his clothes. His clothes were not ready yet. Doing well, I was a bit nervous and said, "You're...the shirt isn't ready yet..." I spoke a little, and Jian Gao smiled frankly: "Haha! Do I say get my clothes now? We are passing by here, but by the way, is it possible that West does not pass?This I was relieved, showing a slight smile and said: "Can be! How come today free?" Jian Gao said: "Well, see a customer in the county at night, it's still early, so come to stroll ... After a while Jian Gao talked to their brothers and said to themselves: “This way, I sit in my hands and go out and look outside to see if there are any delicious fruits...” When I go out, I will bring back a big bag of fruit or something. Saying: "Come and come, everyone eats together!" I was a bit embarrassed to eat at the beginning, so I was always busy. The apprentice told me bluntly: "Somebody treats you not to eat you silly? Anyway If you don't eat, I'll eat it first!" I answered lightly: "Okay, you're going to eat." There weren't too many of them called: "There are busy people there, come over and eat it, those living We will never rush with you, rest assured..."I smiled and said: "I was eating late at noon and I'm still full. You eat the same!" Huaping said: "Now no one wants you to eat. Ha, eating fruit will not hold you to death; Now, these fruits are still going to make us go back and how are we? We don't have so much energy..." Then Jian Gao came over and grabbed the tailor's shears in my hand and reached for my hand, trying to pull me over. I ducked his hand and said something shyly: "Okay, well, I'll just eat it." Later, the number of people who came was getting more and more ordinary. Every few tens of miles across the road came west. At first I thought I was looking On my apprentice, because two or three of them had more chats with my apprentice, the apprentice later asked me if you had any feelings for this person. I also said that Jian Gao is interesting to you. The apprentice told me that he was an idiot. I don't see it. He came to you... He helped me cut the button holes, buy fruit and eat, and started chasing me. After a month, I also had an interest in Jian Gao. So he accepted his pursuit and talked for more than half a year. He has been obsessed with me since the past six months. Once I got angry, I was slapd by me. Actually, I was a little sorry to go out and quickly said to him apologetically, "I'm sorry I'm sorry! It's because I shot it too fast..." He smiled and told me: "It's okay; I talk too much." The brothers began bragging. He said he was the manager of the Shanghai Garment Factory. He was a veteran and had everything in his family. Later, I didn’t care if his manager wasn’t a manager. People liked it. Another one said that he would be angry when she said I couldn’t get married. She was engaged to Jian Gao’s engagement and brought back Jian Gao’s family. I don’t believe what the family is saying. I’m still not convinced of what the family said. Or is it with him? My mother asked if he wanted to marry my daughter’s deposit of RMB 1,000. At the time, Jian Gao said: “As long as you and your elders agree, Money is not a problem.” Then I went to his home with Jian Gao to see the future mother-in-law, and her mother-in-law was satisfied. After a few days he took 400 yuan as a deposit to take me to his house. What was his house? No, staying with his mother, he was not a general manager of an ordinary farmer, his own business is not a bully, when I began to suspect that he flickered, no way, only complained that their eyes are not bright Hey, he comforted himself in his heart. As long as others are good to me, what kind of house and money do not care...

Having been together for half a year, he asked me: “How are you still not pregnant! My second cousin and I are about the time to get engaged, and the second cock is about to be born.” I was a bit worried and told Jian Gao: “I’m not Dare to become pregnant. I'm afraid that after pregnancy, you will turn away and give up on me..." He pulled me into his arms and promised, "Surely not. I will not suffer forever in my life!" After a month I was pregnant, and once I had two people visiting the fair, and when I saw dried fish, I said I really wanted to eat. He actually said that there was no money in his pocket. Then I took out my money and bought a pound of dried fish. After he left, he sold the fish to the man. Say to me: "Your husband is still counting this money in the morning and he just doesn't want to buy it for you."

When he was almost 3 months pregnant, he really took me back to her parents' house; he said: "We haven't got a marriage certificate yet. If I live in the city, I fear that the town government will pay attention to it. If you live in her parents' house, I will come in often. You..." I was really stupid and I lived in my maiden's house. The result was only once when I was pregnant and I was born. When I saw other women who wanted to eat when I was pregnant, I would buy them. I wouldn’t want to buy fruits or buy them. , I went to the county outside to buy too far, at this moment the heart is a drop of blood ah; or my brother-in-law came back from the outside with 5 pounds of apples to me, but also reluctant to eat in the carton kept well, an apple in two or three days to eat In the end, many apples are rotten...

He himself rekindled with his ex-girlfriend and brought him over there. Before that, he really couldn't think of such a person. My mother told me to knock the kid out and not go back to Jian Gao. I said: No, even if he didn't want this child, I gave birth to her and raised her up..." Mom and Sister carried me to the Living Buddha: Ma said if I had a boy with a built up, I would certainly believe that it would be good for me. If a girl tries to persuade me to destroy it, but I have already made up my mind. I have to stay with both boys and girls, and I have to be raised to an adult. Later on I arrived once and then I went to the first half of my life. In the coming month, my stomach was very big. I went to a small clinic in the village to see if I had not yet reached her due date. I went back to see it again. Every two or three days I saw it was not yet... Home is five miles away from the small clinic, it is still winter snow. I walked back and forth for 45 minutes; on the 5th first visit the doctor said that I could stay here, and then my mother informed Jian Gao that he was in. The next day he began to have stomach pains. He was not born yet. He suffered a total of 7 days. Birth; middle mother asked the doctor several times the child is It's normal because my oldest sister was the one who had a baby when he was born. The baby climbed up and eventually got into the life of an adult. So he was afraid that mom meant to go to a big hospital in the county, but Jian Gao asked if the doctor's position was The normal doctor said that the location is normal because the builder did not dare to go to the county because he didn’t have much money. In the next two days, my entire person had no strength and had been rolling on the bed. At that time, I thought that it would be even more unpleasant It was dead on the ground. But on the rolling side the mother stopped by the side of the bed. Jian had been saying: "Don't worry, wait; don't worry, wait...." until the beginning of the lunar November In the early hours of the four days, when the firecrackers started ringing, I was unable to ask my mother: "What day is it so lively?" Mom said, "There are married women who enter their new home and do full moon wine!" At 7 or 8 o'clock the child He was born at last; he only said: “The niece will not suffer in the future. If she can’t afford to raise her for six days, today’s day is very good. This daughter will surely have a good future...” I saw a daughter, he said:. "How about you just do not come out here with children, family planning outside our grasp strict, did not receive a marriage certificate afraid to attract attention, I come to you to send flowers Niangliang out income-generating livelihoods."

After that, I haven’t seen people in the shadows yet. I have to help the children in my village to make clothes to earn my living expenses. However, my daughter’s self-overfear and heartache for six months caused me to vomit from tomorrow afternoon to tomorrow morning. Then she vomited no effort to pass out, but the brain was still awake, that is, when I heard her mother cry and whispered, "Here you are doing evil, you are high, you are evil..." I want to say to Mom: He complained that his eyes had not chosen him like him at this time, and he accepted it.” But he never opened his mouth and said, and then after a while, he came back from the mountain and saw Ma crying and asking her what was wrong with her. The cardiopulmonary said: "Yan Xiao has been lying there for a long time and will not move, so she did not respond." He said in a hurry: "Quickly get the sewing needle, can only be a dead horse when a living horse medicine." It took me all my life to pass through my body, and it was only bloody. Then I felt it slowly, and then my brother-in-law took me back to a nearby hospital to save it! Jian Gao had not come to see it yet. I didn't know anything about it. I didn't write back to him. Then I heard people say he brought other women out...