I don't know what is going on, but God knows, don't say like God doesn't exist, because he does exist and his Son did die on a cross for all our sins and pains, he knows them the best by himself, because he did bear them all and nailed them on a cross, so pray to God and repent your sins, there is no other way, only Jesus, believe in him and you will get the everlasting life, because this whole world is gonna die, so don't die with it and born again with Jesus because only in him is the life and he is the only true king because his Father gave him all the power and authority so every heavenly and earthly creatures have to bow in his name, we are all free in Jesus that is the only true freedom and life.

Mt 28:18 "18 And Jesus came and spoke to them, saying, All power is given to me in heaven and in earth."

1Cor 15:27 "For he has put all things under his feet. But when he said all things are put under him, it is manifest that he is excepted, which did put all things under him."

Phil 2:8 "And being found in fashion as a man, he humbled himself, and became obedient to death, even the death of the cross. 9 Why God also has highly exalted him, and given him a name which is above every name: 10 That at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of things in heaven, and things in earth, and things under the earth; 11 And that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father."