Dear Diary: Supplementing My Diet With Muesli For Lunch

I already ate the fried meat that my mother made and guess what, the taste and texture is still found wanting, more acidity to tenderize the meat, ore seasonings to tickle my desensitized taste buds.

It is quite hard to chew and I did tried to eat upright today and I end up like I am looking like a spasmodic patient with m left elbow supporting y body while looking up and chewing to prevent food from getting out from my mouth. It is a frustrating everyday event and if the food doesn't taste good it just makes things even unappetizing.

Yesterday as I was eating my food at dialysis the nurses just went on the other side. I am certain that they do not want to hear me chew my food as I was making chewing noises that I can't prevent. So I just eat anyway and fast and for me now eating is just a way to survive and not enjoy most part of it.

Anyway my phosphate binder is soon to get depleted so I thought that I must eat some Muesli in addition to what I ate this lunch which is just small portion of rice and one fried tough meat. I might record myself again but it really isn't a good sight to see and sound to hear. Such is my life.