Dear Diary: Today Is One Of The Most Difficult Days Of My Life

It is difficult not only for me but also my parents, they have to flush the toilet for me because I can't lift the pail of water of our manual-flush old toilet. It is sad that this things are happening but I have to accept the fact that I will capitulate soon. I guess that some of my nightmares are beginning to emerge and I am trying to get out from it by sleeping but I am still waking up to find out that the problem is still here.

A hip joint pain is a murderous condition and it has the tandem with the tailbone issue and booth are not allowing me to walk and both are giving me a considerable hell on earth. I am just teary-eyed writing this because I have no one to call to help me, I am on my own and what is hard is that I am such a drag to my parents because they do not deserve this punishment.

I am also trying not to moan and groan a lot now and I promise not to curse again and suck the pain up just for not to affect my parent's emotions because it doesn't help and I just might scream "Hallejujah" instead every time a sharp pain comes from my hip and tail bone joints.

If somebody out here in the community that can pray for me now is the time I needed it. It is just good that I am a member of this community at steemit because I have found some long-distance friends that are just compassionate enough more than my nurses and doctors to help and support in many ways. God Bless you all.