Let me tell u , droppong down of bp during dialysis is not something that only u encounterd but hypotension ( low bp) is the most common compliction of dialysis, so don't be panic with it.
Time and again, let me tell u don't let negative thoughts beat u down.Stay toned up with optimism.Passimistic thoughts are no ways going to help,they are only harmful for u but positive thoughts are beneficial for ur physica,social l as well as mental health.So kick off the passimism and embrace optimism.May GOD heal u soon.