Yes, it's hard to have to let go of the things you love(d) doing. I've had to say goodbye to quite a few too. The 'hiding part' for me is emotionally challenging, on the one hand I would LOVE more support from people, they will without a word stand up for someone who looks sick but look angry at me when I ask for it :-) I'm not saying the 'not hiding' part is easier. It both has its challenges. MS is a rough one - I'm so glad you've found Steem too! On my 'spoonie days' I'm thankful for the communities I've found here as well <3