How Does This Start...

What makes me think this time will be different? I've started one of these, along with many other clones of the format, a hundred times before. So what's going to change today? I would love to tell you I have some kind of new lease on life and I'm on a new roll of creative juice and I'm spunky and fresh... But I'm not. I opened this account 4 years ago, and never made a post.

I might have replied to a comment or something but this is really the first time I'm looking at steem. I can assure you i'm not interesting, at least not in the way that the instagram cround and youtubers are. My life is pretty mundane except for the crazy stuff that happens around me, and really that isn't any kind of gauge, just because thats the world I live in.

People around me are a weir and interesting bunch. But myself? Maybe I have a little bit on the average Joe because of my weird obsession with my existentialism or the epiphanies I have every once in a while concerning my object failure to be able to move forward or failing at accepting my future inevitable death. But i suspect I'm not the only one who does those things and I know for SURE there are a hundred other humans who have the same trains of thought but that can write it down so much more beautifully than I possibly could.

I'm not even sure I  still consider myself ... myself...I don't put much weight in my past and so it's pretty easy to forget who I am, or was, or am supposed to be. I'm actually pretty lost most of the time. Of course I have opinions, but I don't think my opinion is more true or correct than someone more versed in the art of creating content that is engaging and targeted and curated. 

I used to daydream that I'd be the posterchild of some new neo-political movement. I had it all branded out, the movement would be the grass roots words from the center of the country. I'd be the face that would represent the "silent majority".

                                                                                  NOBODY. 

That was my angle. who's the guy on the radio blabbing about very reasonable ideas ,if not taken as a "rightwing"... but as ideas that people have when they don't listen to the msm and have children in public school, and a mortgage, and bills they cant pay, and care if their children grow up being completely fucking useless.

Trust me, I'm far from wholesome. Like fucking leagues away, and very comfortable with being the brand of Sinner that I am. But I also have a great love for freedom, and country, and I think there are limits to how far you should be pushing boundaries that no one can possible predict whether or not the end result won't ruin all of the incredible things that have been handed down to us by men and women that knew what struggle was... and why they think the new generation is full of cowards and blame-shifters. Whom want everything for nothing and think its sustainable in any way.

I have a son. He is like, scary smart and has so much more potential thanI did and he's perfectly behaved and will do well in anything he wants to go for. I know that it's not alladoom and gloom and the "Red Threat"isn't a real problem yet.

Maybe I'll say something worth a shit if I just keep talking long enough. Who knows?

Some one once said, "You're actions speak so loudly that no one can hear your words". I think that may be the best quote Ive ever heard. Just because of how true it rings. Ive lost my steam and my train of thought. maybe I have ranted all i needed to today, or at least for right now.