@maninayton thank you so much for your thoughtful and insightful words. You are right, I am worried about my husband and honestly I've been in the situation where I have also longed for the permanent escape, though the sense of responsibility to my family would never allow it. It was unbelievably hard to ask for help, and I am quite overwhelmed by all the kind comments and support I have received. I have followed you too, and I am privileged to have found such a clearly kind soul.