I searched everywhere... but what I lost was inside me.

I searched for something I'd lost...

I don't know what it is.
I searched several times, but I couldn't find it.

I looked on my phone, in my books,
at my family's, at my friends', but to no avail.

Everywhere was silent,
until I sat alone, far from people,
in a place where no one was there, except me and myself.
Perhaps I'd find what I was looking for, and then I tried to remember what I'd lost.

I breathed in some fresh air,
and calmed down a little.

Then I began to reflect,
and I started asking myself,
"What is it that I've lost and can't find anywhere?"

Then there were moments of silence...
Then I began to realize the truth.

I wasn't looking for something lost...
I was searching for myself.

I was searching for that version of myself
Who dreamed without fear,
And believed that anything was possible.

I was searching for my passion...
The one that made me wake up full of enthusiasm,
Not because of obligation...but because of desire.

I was searching for my inner peace,
For that tranquility unaffected by what people say,
And unshaken by comparisons.

I was searching for my self-confidence,
That was lost amidst long waits,
And hesitation, and the fear of failure.

I was searching for my simplicity...
For that heart that didn't complicate everything,
And didn't carry all this weight.
But the most important question wasn't: What did I lose?

But... How did I lose it?

I lost it when I started postponing my dreams,
And convincing myself that "the time isn't right yet."
I lost it when I listened to the opinions of others more than my inner voice,

And when I doubted my abilities simply because the path wasn't easy. I lost it when I became preoccupied with pleasing everyone else...

And forgot to please myself.
I lost it when I grew weary...and didn't stop to understand myself,
But continued on as if I didn't care.

And now...

I'm not looking for something lost outside,
but rather trying to reclaim what I lost within.
Perhaps the journey isn't over yet...
But at least,
I now know what I'm looking for.

Thank you for reading.