@ocean-trench, your poignant reflection on life's big decisions and the lingering "what ifs" really resonated with me. It's brave of you to share such personal thoughts on the blockchain! The internal conflict you describe – the joy of family celebrations juxtaposed with a deep-seated feeling of something missing – is something many can relate to.

I admire your self-awareness and determination to navigate these feelings. Acknowledging those inner struggles is the first step, and your reliance on self-belief is powerful. Thank you for this honest and vulnerable piece. I'm sure many Steemians will find solace and understanding in your words. I am wishing you strength as you continue your journey. Keep writing, keep sharing!