Learn with Steem: What have I been doing?

I've always said to everyone I met on the platform that I have lots of things to talk about, but I can't find the right words to convey them. The problem to me right now is that whenever I write, I always get stuck in the middle or whenever I get lost in the flow.

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I think that my mental wellness gets affected by unpleasant remarks caused by the people in my surrounding. And with that, I'm unable to be as productive as I can be no matter how I tell myself that I am doing fine.

I know courage has something similar to beauty. You have to convince yourself that you are good enough and, you can do the things you want by believing in yourself. Just like in beauty, if you wanted to look and feel beautiful, you have to convince yourself that you are. And I try to apply that with courage and confidence. But even though I try to do that, why can't I still show any good results?

I do that because I feel like I lost some of my confidence throughout the years I'm doing things online. I remember at the beginning that I was that kid who never cared whether I might fail or not. I just decided to chase my dreams. And the rest was history. It was not an easy journey. I've been through a lot and endured more than others thought I did. Those who judged me never knew my story. They never understood what I felt.

And alongside that journey, imaweader existed - I existed.

Steemit was my first blogging platform and it will always be. The year 2017 was the start of my journey. Sure, it wasn't that interesting and rewarding to talk about but I feel like I've grown with the experience I acquired in blogging.

I've learned that I can somewhat transform the pain in my heart into writings and shamelessly share them with everyone. And although I haven't got much attention with my writings, I continue on writing because I know they are worthy and they have value.

How long has it been? Almost 4 years? Although in between that I've been blogging on and off, I never thought to leave Steemit and the Steem Blockchain for good. It was sad to see many users leave, but there will always be people who will stay and persevere.

Steemit has thought me a lot of things; from the ups and downs to the reason why I don't give up on my dreams.

I've also learned how to withdraw your earnings from Steemit. Thanks to @cryptokannon for providing me a link on that matter. And I don't know if it was just me, after that I started seeing a guideline section on the homepage of Steemit.

Imagine I've been that long as user in the platform but I didn't know how I could reward myself from everyone's curation on my posts. And that was also the day that I was reminded that Steem is a crypto. I had to learn how to do transactions from wallets to different platforms. But I think I had to find a better way in the future.

True, that it's uncertain whether I can ever reach my goals or not, but I know someday it would be possible too. The probability that they can have a chance to happen is more than enough for me to believe in the beauty of my dreams. After all, I've believed in my dreams because of their potential.

Always remember to do great. You don't have to be great just to do great. You just have to start. I'll remember that as note for myself.

P.S.: This is my entry for Steeming Community Weekly Contest: Better Life Theme Contest || "Learn With Steem"

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