My friend don’t give up! You are doing a great job and you have come a long way.
I can understand how you feel due to the low Steem price but hang on it will recover.
Of importance forget about the 25% to @null if it takes away from you table. It is understandable.
Just stick to the basics and enjoy it.
Finally I will advice you to start with June engagement challenge when it comes up.

It will take you out of your comfort zone and maybe it is something you need just now.
Strongs! You can do it!