THE GUILT OF UNWORKABLE CHARACTER

For once, I feel the need to rewrite the stars. For once I feel there is a need to go back and address a part of me I neglected till it haunted me down. I was so neglectful of my temperament and it really did followed me to the place I never think it will.

I am the kind of person that doesn't like being upset or call it angry because the moment I do, I tend to forget about so many things and just move on with the flow. I might do unimaginable things that at some point, when all is said and done, I will regret them. This was the part of me I should've worked on before now but I allowed it because I felt it wasn't much of a thing to give a thought about.

Saturday, something happened and I let it loose, after everything, I came back regretting all my actions and wish I had worked on the part of me that needed so much attention I never knew it needed. A whole lot of things happened and I feel maybe, if I had controlled the way I reacted to it, maybe today, I would still had been a very happy man, but here we are today again, feeling that ounce of regrets.

If I am to turn back the hands of time, I would go back to where I would be able to hold myself or my temperament and just be cool with whatever I have or is happening around me. This is the part I don't get to understand. Maybe if there wasn't any form of procrastination, I wouldn't had been here. I kept telling myself that I never needed to work on that part as it doesn't hurt anyone but Saturday, it did hurt someone and I am seated here calling myself all sort of names and I don't know if it pays for whatever damage I might have caused.

I told myself today that I wasn't going to overlook anything about me that needs to be worked on. I will pause and work on that part till I attend perfection. It's so hard trying to know how much your I'll character can hurt someone else and not even you the career of such character. I am just out here regretting that part of me I never worked on and I wish I did more better.

Have you felt someone thing like this before? Ever felt the guilt of hurting another person because of your character? I would really love to see your opinion, this is the point I go back to the guilt, it's never going be easy forgiving myself but with time, I think I will be able to do that.