The night before
What makes you believe childhood is the best period of one's life? To too many children it's not and they struggle their entire life to be liked, accepted.
Sad, sad, sad, is that how I feel? I feel cold inside my chest. My grandmother told me the night before I will stay longer with her. I didn't ask her why and she didn't tell me. I wonder about school aren't the holidays over yet? I am not sure what is meant with longer. Is it longer a day, week, month or forever?
As I was little I went to kindergarten in this place but we move. I don't know why but it had to do with my dad and my mother found a job where we live now. It's at a place where only new houses are built and you easily get lost but the school is nearby. I don't know where the schools are here. Perhaps where my former kindergarten is but that's a long walk. I think I can still find it but my grandmother will not let me walk over there. I have to stay with her, can go into the garden and look at the geese but am not allowed to have a look inside the barns my grandfather used. One he was always busy in. Perhaps he repaired things or just wanted to be left alone. Adults can leave but I can't.
I don't think I mind staying with my grandmother. She never says something to make me feel better, never makes a joke or tells me stories but that's fine.
She doesn't tell at me, doesn't beat me, she lets me luck the bowl if she made cake and at night if I am in bed I can take one liquorice out of her jar. It's the small one on her side table and she takes it over to me. I have to go to bed alone, get undressed and pray and later she checks on me. She checks the shutters too. Just curtains aren't enough. I need to close the shutters so men can not see me. Perhaps it's because of the carbuncles or because I am ugly.
Sunday
March 21, 2021
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Such a nice post girl... @wakeupkitty You have a beautiful friendship with your grandma, she must be a nice lady and maybe I should try to be more charming to my wonderful friends and your grandma must be caring to you because she gives you yummy and delicious food as well. I like to put nice curtains in our house because it makes the house more warm and you canvtry to help your mother and grandma too putting curtains in your home and can make your beautiful my Steemian friends.
Actually this grandmother is not a nice person. Let's say she tolerates me, doesn't hit me like mother does and that's basically it. She never hugs or says a friendly word. She feels mainly ashamed... the shame black people bring to a white family...