Everything you say seems like a good life to me, but financially....uh.... I have made my life avoiding people, not interacting at all. I see how people become in chase of money. There is no winning and going by. As a kid it may be all fun and to be fair it still is. Having responsibilities, like you, there are no off days. My parents didn't have them.
So I must go out and grind. Although there is no meaning for me, I can provide for people that care for me.