I don't know how you get time to write as well. I feel the inconsistent gig work drains you, and the fact that it will not last. This also led me to enter into multiple ventures, but I can't do everything. I enjoy new things.
Having health conditions and working is very easy to get lost in not working at all.
For me fitness and playing games are the things that sustain me. I don't know what I'll do without them including the people that care for me.
You are so lucky to have people that care for you
That is the only thing I care for, my siblings despite me being a burden. I don't talk much and still my parents love me.
I don't know how it feels when you get to suffer alone. I deeply commend you and hope you get people that care for you.
It touches me deeply that your family is there for you. I’m sure they don’t see you as a burden, or you wouldn’t feel that level of care and love from them.
I was on good terms with my siblings until I fell sick many years ago. It wasn't that I asked for money or anything from them; their behavior just changed suddenly, and we are no longer in contact. Maybe it is hard to tolerate someone in my situation. I don’t know.
People get busy in their own lives, and that will happen till the end. Yes, people are sympathetic at the start, but things begin to fade. It happens so much that you get disillusioned. In the end, it is better to suffer alone and not burden others. If they want to see, they will know.
I am the eldest, yet everyone who visits does not seem to think so. I have seen that people usually do not have good relations with their siblings, egos or something of the sort. Or perhaps I am this way and they followed. Let us see if it will fade as the years go by.
That is the hard truth of life, nothing is forever. People move on, new people come into our lives, and the cycle continues. I hope that despite these changes, things remain stable and fine for you for a long, long time.
For some people, writing and drawing are just as much of an outlet as gaming. I see it all around me, in my own family. One of my children made a 24-hour shift pattern lifestyle. And work only a few nights a week, earns enough. Staying at home is preferred,no visitors. I think this is also typical of highly sensitive and creative people. It can be a bit lonely, but on the other hand, they aren’t exactly social butterflies and tend to be more introverted. If not alert the anxiety creeps in slowly. With or without panic attacks.
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@wakeupkitty
Everything you say seems like a good life to me, but financially....uh.... I have made my life avoiding people, not interacting at all. I see how people become in chase of money. There is no winning and going by. As a kid it may be all fun and to be fair it still is. Having responsibilities, like you, there are no off days. My parents didn't have them.
So I must go out and grind. Although there is no meaning for me, I can provide for people that care for me.