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 29 days ago 

It might feel that way, but it's possible if you look at it from a different angle. Change and you attract fewer abusers, although they and the manipulators will try you out first before they give up (and find a new victim immediately). You can also delete people from your life and... hit te road, leave and make sure that you will never meet them again (it's the best defence if you are not strong enough yet).

Something has to change. I would naively tell them things in the past but now I refuse to answer them and walk into a different room. She tried to pry asking about my health condition, my answer was 'Just like that. Nothing much." Like I said something but never actually answer her question.

 28 days ago 

Sounds to me as if you gave an answer like: I am fine, no need to worry or ask again. I would avoid having this idea. Instead of words you can also shoot with your eyes at her. My children say I can look very scary...if I do that.

I know that kind of glare. I used to use it on the kids my mother and I babysat whenever they got too unruly. They would look so terrified that they wouldn't dare move a muscle. LOL

 27 days ago (edited)

That's the one.
Babysitting is a piece of cake and the best is the most terrible children respect and like you.

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I’m not someone who loves children instantly. I can't just meet a child and immediately start playing or acting affectionately; for me, it takes time to truly like them.

One of the most rewarding things about babysitting is watching that bond grow—how they eventually start following you everywhere, watching everything you do, and finally falling asleep right beside you.

I once cared for a timid girl who had suffered at the hands of someone else. After a long bout with chickenpox, she ran to me and hugged me so tight that it melted my heart.

But people come and go, and children do too. I always have a terrible time saying goodbye—I cry as if there’s no tomorrow.

Even now, I often dream about them and wake up wondering how they are doing and who they've become.

 25 days ago 

I also do not like every child and am not blind for who my children are or what tgey do. Like you I also wonder what came out of all those children I took care of or met. I consider that a normal thing to do.