Sometimes

Sometimes I'm tired and I'd rather do nothing, and that's what I try. Just ride it out and wait until bedtime. Yesterday, I thought it would be a good idea to lie down on the couch, but that only lasted a few minutes before the house was full again. I didn't light the stove simply because I was planning on going to bed, and... I finally did. That's the good thing about no one stopping you, even if my boyfriend would say, "You need more sleep."

Sometimes I don't sleep well, and that was the case again last night. I wanted to lie against the wall, between the wall and the mattress, and that didn't really work. Things shifted and the mattress shifted... it's a miracle I stayed on the stack of mattresses without falling to the floor. Sometimes my nights are like the night of the princess on the forty mattresses (why 40) under which lay a pea.

Sometimes, very occasionally, I can still remember a dream after I fall asleep. That was the case last night. I was busy packing my things, the trip was over (but why did it feel like I was in a supermarket, loading candy from my shelf just like everyone else was?)... I had a plane to catch, so I had to hurry.
In the hallway, a man came up the stairs. How did he drag the cart along like that and thrust a bundle into my arms? I have no idea if he said, "Have fun with it," but I had to figure it out myself. How, what? Another baby? I already had one, and how do you smuggle such a child onto the plane? Or should I cancel the trip and let the others leave without me?

Sometimes you see the forms clearly in your sleep... had I filled them all out? How meddlesome can someone be, or had I saved someone from death again?

Sometimes you're faced with choices, and the answer? I didn't get it, but I don't trust Uncle Jan one bit, who mumbled that I could live in his apartment for so long. I think I'll just make it on my own, just like I used to, with or without a child thrown into my lap (or was it thrust into my arms?). The Year of the Horse represents freedom, and I won't let it be taken away from me.

Very often, not sometimes, all you need is a dose of creativity!

_{Prompt: see title
19-2-2026
The painting is mine - watercolour paint.}