Assalamu'alaikum Wr.Wb.

My Story😇

Rain greeted the earth again tonight. The cool, fresh air and the sound of raindrops on the roof of the house made me pensive. Carried back to old sorrows that have just been healed by time. The coldness was not only felt on the skin, but also reached my heart, making me short of breath and having difficulty breathing.

I've been feeling weird for the past week.
Feeling like something is wrong with me.
Some moments excited with a good mood. Sometimes feeling sad and bad at other times.
I ask myself, what's wrong? What am I doing?
My thoughts of something always haunt me when I'm alone.

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Source:
https://images.app.goo.gl/FWsDQH38BkoEtXFw8

When I do nothing, thoughts of guilt come and take over my mind. It turns out that my heart and I are mourning the passing of a person. In times of solitude and supportive nature, I remember the moments of togetherness. Like a movie scene that replays in my memory. The times when we could still reply to messages and greet each other when we met in person.

The rain is getting heavier, the more I drift in memories. I remember things that have not been able to fulfill his wishes. Or my words that might hurt him. Right now I can't stop missing him more and more. I want to turn back time to at least be able to fulfill his hopes, even if not his wishes. I want to say "yes" to the "no" answers that I have been giving. I want to not avoid him even though we are not meeting.

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Source :
https://images.app.goo.gl/LzhAUt8DcMvSZgxB8

The attention was only felt after I lost it. Even though he was no longer here, I hoped to see him again even though we didn't meet. However, that was no longer possible. We were separated by the fact that he was already there....

But God said otherwise.
He has reached the final stopping point.
I or anyone else cannot stop him. It is said that;
"Good people are called first, so that their sins do not increase".
Today is the tenth day I lost him.
May he be placed in the best place by His side.
Al-Fatihah for him 🤲

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Source: https://images.app.goo.gl/XxJHdUiuye8SkysY9

Tonight in this room, before I close my eyes to start my dream, I write this note. Hopefully we can meet again in the next life.
God loves you more💕

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I feel better after writing for this contest. Thank you for the contest Miss @ruthjoe. I also invite sis @sailawana and @khairiani to join.