I've been there too with that love/hate relationship with STEEM. Most of mine is related to the monetary side though. Pouring my heart into something only to get a couple of cents and then seeing someone else throw something up and getting hundreds of dollars. It is just mind numbing at time. I am a bit eager to see what ends up happening moving forward. I hope that no matter what I am able to maintain the connections with the people I have met on here.