I have reached 75 K SP

How do you feel when you achieve something big?

Achieving something big hits like a thunderclap of pure, electric joy. One that ripples through every fiber of your being, leaving you breathless and alive in a way nothing else can.

Imagine standing at the summit of Mount Himalaya, I've been trying to climb for years, the wind whipping my face, the world sprawling endlessly below. I am not so sure if there are more to be climbed or will I stop here.

That first rush is euphoria, my heart pounding, a grin splitting my hair uncontrollably, as if my soul just broke free from gravity.

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It's validation, proof that I grit outlasted the doubts, the failures, the endless days, evenings and nights grinding on Steemit. In this moment, I feel invincible, like the universe had created this moment just for me. But at the same time I miss my mentors @disconnect and the South African queen of blogging @patjewell who is no more active for almost two years.

But my reaching to 75k SP is more layered than a single high. I am feeling a profound gratitude, a quiet awe for my journey so far. Once you reach somewhere you replay the hurdles, the rejections and the hardships so I must thenak @graceleon who came and encouraged me. It's humbling, realizing no one scales alone. I feel a swell of love for them, a fierce urge to pay it forward.

You know a blogger that worked for a long time go no recognition here which stung like salt in wounds, the self-doubt that whispered "quit," but the small wins that kept burning flames alive.

Achieving this milestone rewrites that narrative and those scars now feel like signs of honor. Gratitude extends outward too to mentors who believed when you wavered, friends who cheered through the muck, who held space without judgment.

Pride surges next, deep and unshakeable confidence not the shallow kind, but the sort earned through sweat and late nights. I am feeling taller, than I am, carrying a quiet confidence that radiates. It's empowering, reshaping how you see yourself, capable, resilient, worthy. y

You know what, all this as it tempers with vulnerability, big wins expose you, make you wonder if you can repeat it. That edge sharpens you, fueling hunger for the next peak. I am not so sure the next dolphin come sometime soon as I have decided to go slow even if I will keep going.

Then comes reflection, it's transformative, shifting perspectives, joy brings peace, a deep contentment that whispers, "You've got this."

Now what?

Emotionally, it's wholeness, fragments of past insecurities knitting into strength.

Of course, shadows lurk. The "what now?" creeps in, a mix of elation and emptiness, the post-achievement void. But even that feels rich, a call to dream bigger. Ultimately, the feeling is good but the pain is bigger. Pain of seeing the things not working because of certain reasons but that's not for me to decide. It remains to be seen how you tackle them. You changed certain things, ready to chase horizons anew, I feel that changed the whole scenario. But my heart is fuller, spirit fiercer yet I have decided to go slower.

Dedicated to @josevas217, @suboohi & @jyoti-thelight