Okay....i try to understand your challenges, you put a lot of straight to work in this great platform and as a newbie your hope of making money was sky high according to you, it later happened that the hope you got wasn't reality as you thought, the support was just a few and sometimes never. I understand how you used to feel like during that hard time. What matters now is your present and who you are and what you do. When you continue to work patiently and consistently, the big surprise vote will come your way. Best of luck friend.