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Bad conscious?

Do you think it can be cured?

I doubt it. It might feel as if vanished but certain feelings always pop up unwanted.
I assume that is the burden of being human. Being a beast would have been better if it comes to this. No deep thoughts/feelings, just doing and continuing.

Humans wear the burden of being raised,most of all by society/religion/politics even if you refuse to be part of it, it affects your brain and behaviour.

The burden of being human… it reminds me of Kierkegaard’s “dizziness of freedom.” Perhaps being a beast would indeed be easier.

Most likely it is.