The Hermit.
“Of all individuals, the hated, the shunned, and the peculiar are arguably most themselves. They wear no masks whatsoever in order to be accepted and liked; they do seem most guarded, but only by their own hands: as compared to the populace, they are naked.” - Criss Jami, Healology
I have lost count of the times I have been called a hermit by my partner. Sure, he says it in humour and not without affection (mostly, lol), but I cannot help but smirk to myself each time he says it. Familiar with the term “wild child”?! Well, I was probably the wildest I have ever encountered lol, and there was not a hermit bone in my body!
It is a curious case really, and I am not sure if the zodiac interests you - but I am a Gemini and he is Aquarius. Technically both quite outgoing - and for the most part we are not meant to get along… well sh!t, I guess that explains the constant bickering over bs, lol!
Yes, yes… I am more than acutely aware of the fact that the analysis of such involves more than the simple inspection of the “sun signs” - but in this instance, it is applicable. I am pretty true to “Gemini description” and all things considered he is definitely a straight down the line Aquarian. Not that any of this has any relevance whatsoever to where I am going with this post… apologies, I have derailed haha! Moving on…
No, I am not a hermit. I just like people a whole lot less than I used to. Oops… did I say that out loud?!, lol. I guess I have just gotten really comfortable with my own company as the years have moved on. There is an expression “selective hearing” often used in relation to kids and them doing/not doing what parents ask of them - well, I think I opt for selective company these days, and 99% of that is filled with close family… and friends I can count on one hand - if that. “How sad Jayne”... No, not really - people suck, haha! - Just kidding (mostly). People are amazing! - The right people that is.
“Progress isn't achieved by preachers or guardians of morality, but by madmen, hermits, heretics, dreamers, rebels and sceptics” - Stephen Fry
I never used to be quite as selective about who I spent my time and energy with - and perhaps when I was younger it did not really matter as much… younger people bounce back a lot quicker from most things and I suppose this is applicable to the “energetic arena” too. Nowadays, one lengthy visit to a mall and I need a damn nap after. I find it so incredibly draining to be around so many people with all their “vibes” interfering with my own.
Younger me, “ate it ALL up”. I would go out all night, head straight from the clubs at 5am, grab myself a pack of 50c NikNaks on the train whilst changing into the uniform which had been stuffed into my backpack all night and head straight into the classroom. Did I learn anything most days… no, no I did not, lol - but did I care, also no!
I lived most of my young life riding on threadbare tyres with so many blurred lines and at the time it was all just in the name of “fun” or “escape”. Thing is - it wasn’t. Just like you, my choices back then continue to influence me today… and one of the ways in which it has become most apparant is that I no longer ignore my intuition, the way I feel about certain people or a particular situation. If something makes me unhappy or uncomfortable - I will remove myself… and if I know beforehand that either of those outcomes/circumstances are likely, I will generally avoid it completely.
“The true artist resides on the inside.
The outside is chaos, bondage and destruction.
The inside is peace, freedom, and creation.”
― Michael Bassey Johnson
The thing is - I like my own company. Perhaps this is because I enjoy thinking and company has a tendency to interrupt that. I know many people don't like to be alone with their thoughts, but unless I am having some kind of melt down… I actually really enjoy being left alone with my internal meanderings.
This might sound utterly ridiculous to some, but one of my favourite parts of every single day is after I have gotten into bed, put my phone down and switched the light off - left alone with nothing but my thoughts about everything I wish to achieve and do the following day as I slowly wander myself to sleep. Whether I manage to achieve all those things the following day is irrelevant. That - is what I would equate to my “bedtime story” lol.
Perhaps I am a hermit. Honestly, I don’t really know - nor do I care. I am not trying to win any “first impressions” awards anymore. I am me and that is who I am..
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Until next time...
Much Love from Country Bumpkinland, South Africa xxx
Jaynielea
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I could say that I am a hermit, I have been working from home for several years, in some way this influences me, being alone for so long makes me get used to it, sometimes the doorbell rings and it even bothers me hahahaha, in fact I don't get up from my work chair, you realize, even people become somewhat annoying, but when I come to this panel it's already something different, very nice people who I consider my friends, I don't need to see them, no there is need
Oh yes, I can relate to that very much!!! I worked from home for years too and you really do become accustomed to the peace and quiet. I also used to get somewhat annoyed when people would arrive unexpectedly - especially family... I found it frustrating because they were interrupting whatever it was that I was doing and I actually thought it quite disrespectful actually... like "because she works from home, shes not really busy."
Agreed. A nice healthy distance... in another country haha - and behind a screen, haha!! :P
Safe to say I think we both give indication of some pretty hermit like tendencies haha!
I like my own company too and so do those few I know. It's very true what you say about company interrupting one's thought.
I don't like to waste time on socializing with people, I never had energy for that and today I lack the time, I have so many things I like to do, no boring moments just a lack of sleep.