Sit back and relax!
Greetings, everyone!
Over time, things have been not working, or should I say I am not working properly, maybe both. For the past two weeks, I have been working on my academic work. Since there were online classes, for about 2 weeks, I still haven't understood a single penny of the work. I am not dumb but this time, I felt like I was not doing enough. I was not on track. Now, I feel like I am actually on track. By the way, the reason for this exhaustion is because of my upcoming mids, which I have not prepared yet. For no reason, I have been hard on myself, not wanting any attention, gatherings, or sympathy. In my last semester, I didn’t score as well as I expected. There was a reason – an unexpected reason.
But to be honest, I guess I’m hard on myself because I feel like I can’t achieve anything, I’m not perfect. All these thoughts are negative, and I know I can turn them into positives, but not anymore. I’m completely discombobulated. Trying things too hard. I’ve started working so hard that I even need a break. Here, I’m not saying that I’ve worked so hard that I’ve achieved everything. No! All the time, I think about my grades, worry about things that I’ve started having health problems again. It’s time to take a break and sit down – not to run around with others.
Sometimes, it’s better to get late than to be late
So, yesterday, after dropping everything, I tried to relax by painting. I’m not an artist yet. I made a painting without any tutorial. This is me no bragging while actually I am telling even if it is not good, it is still the first painting with zero knowledge.
Step by step
First, I took a half-cut wooden board, and I didn't have a canvas.
And started painting. I took three different shades. Light pink, dark pink, purple.
I made the sky, mixing these colours in three different rows. At first, I thought it would be very easy to mix, but it wasn't very easy.
Purple, dark pink, light pink
Then, I added a white colour to give that pure sky vibes.
It comes out perfectly!
Secondly, I made a pole- street pole. With light strings. The strings were not good because they needed to be so thin. So, it didn't look like strings.
And for the lights I took yellow.
Finally, I made small houses and trees at the bottom of the painting to give it a look.
Look!
I know it's not good but I liked it and the reason was not to be good at it but to relax. And of course, I was.
I felt every word of this. Sometimes we push ourselves so much that we forget to breathe. Taking a break is not weakness, it’s necessary. And your painting shows courage, not lack of skill. You’re doing better than you think 🌷
Few of us understand the pain behind the rush. Being negative for too long made me feel worse about myself. And what I've come to realize is that sometimes it's okay to express it, because it's people like you who encourage people like me. 🙃
I can understand this feeling really well. There are times in our lives when we become negative, even without wanting to. Our thinking changes, we feel demotivated, and there’s a lot more that we could explain but it would take too long. The most important thing, however, is that we become aware of it and make an effort to pull ourselves out of it.
And InshaAllah, you will handle everything in the best way. Whenever you need anything or feel like talking, do let me know I’m always here for you.🫂
That's exactly now my point of view.
Thank you so much 💓
... and you’re going to do that more often from now on! Relax, I mean. Your quest for perfection isn’t doing you any good and certainly won’t lead to success. If you do your best whilst staying relaxed – then that’s exactly what’s truly perfect ;-))
That's right. I was overwhelmed after reading that it won't lead to success, unless I'm happy!
Thank you for your kind words! (^-^;
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